I’ve got a fever, and the only cure..

 Well my friend, it has once again, been too long. 

I find myself with so much to write about, that every time I start, I get overwhelmed. But I am finally making an attempt. 

I guess i should start with the most important thing, which I guess has been counseling. I am so glad that I made the decision to start going. It has been helping tremendously. The lady I talk to just seems to really understand me as a person (which I guess is sorta her job) and she gives me really great advice about things. She says I have a long way to go, which I know it true. This is the point though where I always tend to quit. Where I start feeling better and then just stop going. Which I think means I stop before I (obviously) work through all of my stuff. So I am going to keep sticking with it until I am no longer a nut. Which may take forever..haha

This past weekend was a wedding of one of Josh’s friends. Friday the wedding party went to the Twins game. Before hand, I had a mini melt down. I was just so anxiety ridden about not knowing anyone..but I think the real issue was that I didn’t want to see her get walked down the isle by her dad. that knowing I would never have that would just be torture. So yeah I stopped having my little fit eventually, and the game turned out to be really fun. Everyone was really nice, and I had a really good time. 

The wedding was also fine on Saturday..it got pretty boring for awhile sitting there listening to everyone else talk about the good old days..yeah no way I can jump into those conversations since I grew up somewhere else. But we started dancing and I had some cake and the fun level went up. When it was time to go, we just decided to go back to our home rather than stay another night in mpls. Yeah I was just beat and fell asleep immediately when we got home. Yesterday was spent relaxing and playing video games 🙂

I don’t want to sound crazy, but I got a little bit of wedding fever. Not like THAT but just couldn’t help thinking about it…a lot. ugh then we were dancing and he would say things that just made my mind spin. On top of that, my friend texts me today asking for the details on Josh and I going ring shopping?! Things on FB get totally misconstrued sometimes lol. I mean it will be a year next month. a year and my heart still races when I see him. That I can just look at him and get butterflies. That I still can’t believe how I lucked out on meeting him. his friend Kristen was talking to us on the way back from the game..and just the things she was saying about her husband..couldn’t help but notice how much those things rang true for me. 

Well, I think that is all I feel like writing for now. 

I can’t believe classes start back up in a week. Where did this summer go?