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 I think I am due..I have been doing a few private entries lately..I think because every time I try to start writing, it comes out as a rant or rather negatively..and I would rather keep those things private i guess. 

I wish I could say I have new and exciting things to write about, but I really don’t. Work has been the only thing that is really going on. I have been teaching a lot more, which has been a nice break from just instructing. it is exhausting though..working everyday I mean. Well, I guess I should say working almost everyday. I wish I could stick to the 3-4 days, but I can’t pay rent with those hours. I don’t mind the paying rent thing..but on the days where work is especially tiring..it is frustrating coming home to my computer playing man. I think I am just jealous though. But would I really want to not work? No. 

I have just been in a funk this past week. Really really tired. I mean I am usually up til at least 2..but lately I find it hard to stay awake past like 12:30. Even then I have been sneaking in quick little naps in the day. Hopefully it is just a little summer cold or something. Maybe it has something to do with giving plasma. doubt it. 

It was awesome though, I actually made rent this month with money to spare. A little easier to do when my paychecks are now more that 200$. 

I am very much looking forward to the weekend! Going to Berg’s cabin. Something different. It will be good to get out of here for a couple days and not just be going back to mpls. i am excited. I am so envious of people that have cabins they can go to every weekend. Oh well, just makes it that much more awesome when I can actually go to someones. 

Oh, i guess I had a birthday since my last entry. Yay. Officially 24 now. It was a good birthday though. My sister had a part for me on the 26th, which was a lot of fun. I did not throw up which was a definite plus. OH and I dyed my hair dark brown. That is new too. It is pretty shocking going from super blonde to dark, but I am loving it. I also got it professionally done, so it looks really nice. When I used to dye it dark years ago, I always used to do it myself and would end up missing spots, and it was always either almost black, or had a weird reddish tint. So yeah very happy with that change. So my actual birthday was the 28th..and I will admit..I was getting my hopes up/setting my sights very high on the Josh aspect. I would have these scenarios in my head of things he would get me..yeah lol. The day before my birthday he told me he wasn’t giving me a present, but had a day planned. That was fine by me, I love surprises. So he woke me up with mc donalds breakfast (my favorite lol). We went back to sleep after that, then woke up and got ready. He brought me to the Munsinger Gardens and it was beautiful. It is this huge area by campus with every type of flower/plant. plus it is right by the river…just really awesome. After that I got Noodles for lunch, went to a bar for some birthday shots, then we went to see Toy Story 3 (which was so so good!). After the movie we went and got stuff for dinner..which we both make together. It was a great day. There aren’t many birthdays that stand out for me, but this one was great. We also got a lot of pictures taken..something we don’t seem to do very often. 

I’m sorry, I know I say this like every entry..but I am so in love with this boy. I was teaching on Friday, and while my students were watching a movie, I just wrote stuff down. Stuff about him/to him. I don’t know if i am ever going to give it to him..but it’s pretty wonderful having to get things down on paper and having them all be wonderful things. Plus, I have already given him too many things that I have written..so it stops until we even the score a little bit- haha

I remember before he said the big ‘i love you’. He would always mouth ‘olive juice’ and say it in other weird ways, almost teasing me with the inevitable. He has been doing that with other things lately and it is driving me nuts. In a good way, but still. I don;t need to get my hopes up about things anymore that I already have. 

ANYWAYS. crazy lady. I hope this funk passes quickly. 

On a fun side note, I am re-watching Felicity with Josh. i think he secretly likes it 🙂

that is all I think. I will try to keep the private entires minimal and update regular ones more often.