05/27/2010

 Well, I figured I was due for an update since it has been over a month. 

To start off, we are all moved in at our new apt. Well, Josh and I are moved in, Leif has been home doing some sort of work and has yet to move his stuff up here. But it’s cool, we had a nice month with the place to ourselves. 

Living together has been nbd at all..not that I was worried. But really it has been just like normal stuff except with awesome dinners because we now have a kitchen 🙂 Man I missed having that. So yeah I have been trying to cook a lot more, didn’t realize how much I missed it. Now all I need it a mixer so I can start baking again! 

But yeah nothing else really to update in that department except we haven’t really been able to do anything because neither of us have any money. yeah I made some banking errors this past month which has pretty much killed me. Thanks TCF! So yeah we went and donated plasma yesterday, I am hoping that will serve as my second job for the summer! I tried to pick up more hours at work but I guess this is like our slowest time until school is out..but that means starting in a week we will be super busy. That also means I start teaching the drivers ed class in a couple weeks as well. I am pretty anxiety ridden about it, but hopefully it will go better than I think. Thank god it is my birthday month in June, that should help catch me back up! In reality though I should be saving a lot living here..in the dorms we were ordering food all the time, so with us not doing that, it saves a lot of money right there. 

i will admit though I feel like I am holding Josh back or something. I look at his old pictures from time to time and it just seems like he would be having way more fun if he was still living at home this summer instead of up here. I told him that and he looked at me the same way he does whenever I say anything nuts. I hope it is just all in my head. I have also convinced myself that his friends (mainly kortney) will probably never really like me. Mainly because he isn’t in Cottage Grove for the summer (which is due to me) and 2 because I know her and his ex are still really good friends. blah. I still need to work on my looking at dumb facebook stuff. Anyways. hopefully that is not the case but it makes me nervous. 

Part of it is I just don’t understand the whole not moving on after high school thing. I moved out after graduation and never looked back. I had to meet new people and start fresh. I can’t relate that well with hanging around the same people and doing the same things. I remember when Ady drug me to the one bar in Blaine and I saw like half of my graduating class there. I was SO glad that my life didn’t revolve around that city or those people anymore. But again, that is just my viewpoint. Some people enjoy the same people/same scene from hs.

I was going through pictures the other day and realized I had saved (for some stupid ass reason) the pictures of them. Why? So yeah had to look at those again and get super pissed. awesome. Everything is just different dynamics. My mom would never like still talk to Erik..or like write on his FB and vice versa. I just try as much as I can to let go of the past and everything like that..I don’t know I forget where I am trying to go with this. 

ANYWAYS. I was supposed to go home this weekend to see SATC with my mom and sister..but after seeing how broke I was, I decided not to. To be honest though, I am really sick of going home. I seriously have been home almost every weekend for the past month with moving and everything. It is such a gas suck and just really expensive for me to keep going back and forth. That didn’t stop me from trying to make Josh go home this weekend though. That is going back to the ‘I feel like he is bored here all the time’ mood. But it looks like it will be us to in the apt this weekend. i am going to try hard to think of fun things to do, it is supposed to be really nice here. Every time I work I drive by this huge outdoor garden over by campus and I think it would be really cool to walk through. All my students say it is pretty sweet. I am thinking it is like the conservatory at Como Zoo but I am not totally sure. ALSO The Road finally came out on DVD which I have been waiting since NOVEMBER to see..so that will definitely make the list 🙂

But yeah we have plasma apps set up for the next 2 weeks, we go again Tuesday. It wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be, but mad that needle is pretty big and them putting it in was the worst part. But at least now I know what to expect and know that I also need to drink a lot more water before I go (mine took a pretty long time!) 

Oook I am rambling now. 

I love living with Josh Carroll  🙂