Gruel.

What are the 7 stages again?

I don’t know which one I am in but I an hiding.

I am considering cutting off all ties with Erik so he can date who he wants. All of the girls I dis-liked are still in his life, as they should be, and he should not feel like he does towards me.

Maybe I should just date Ben. Ha yeah ok. You know who I want to date? Kings of Leon. I want to date the band and marry their music. It is lovely.

I just will not be able to handle discovering another fling, and you know what? I don’t care about things anymore. i mean little things. Which I guess it something I needed all along-a better ablilty to let things roll off my back. I think my dad is working hard to make sure I at least come out of this with that.

Sometime soon i will do an update. many days I make it to the keyboard but my fingers wont hit the keys.

So i will leave you with lyrics, which I haven’t done in some time

This song makes me feel. which is amazing.

Listen.

Little Mona Lisa laying by my side
"Crimson and Clover" pullin’ overtime
I feel too close to be losin’ touch
By givin’ in, what am I givin’ up
Am I losin’ way too much

Hey
California waiting
Every little thing’s gotta be just right
Stay
While you’re tryin’ to save me
Can’t I get back my lonely life

I’m goin’ so fast that I can’t slow down
It’s hard to get up when you’re spinnin’ round and round
I’d tell you the news but nothin’s changed
I’d sing you a song but they blew it away
All wrapped up in this stupid ass game

Hey
California waiting
Every little thing’s gotta be just right
Stay
While you’re tryin’ to save me
Can’t I get back my lonely life
Can’t I get back my lonely life