We meet again
Hello out there.
Weird, it has been awhile. Strange.
I have been in deperate need to wrtie, I honeslty have just struggled with finding the time.
Things are getting hard for me again, and I am angry that I am back in this place.
Erik-
Things with Erik started falling a month or 2 ago, and now we are back in that same position we were in last year at this exact time. it is really frusterating because there is nothing wrong with Erik. I have this great guy in my life who I have known for the past 3 years. but something jsut ins’t sparking anymore. I have tried to talk to him about it, but he just gets so frusterated, as do i. It is much harder when you can’t put your finger on what is wrong. I know that he would try and try forever to make us work, but once again, we are not. I love him but I feel like we have already crossed that line, and for now there is no going back. I talked to my sister about it and she said, "Erik is a great guy, I love that kid, but I mean what is he doing with his life? I feel like he is holding you back, you guys don’t have a healthy physical relationship anymore, I think you know what to do" I told her today that I really wanted to talk to Tim about it since he was around last year when the exact same thing was going on. Her opinion was that would hurt Erik’s feelings. Who knows, I am the kind of person who needs multiple opinions on a subject.
School-
Actually going well, it is really keeping me busy, but I love that. I am actually meeting people (even got asked out) and am trying to be as outgoing as I can.
Work/friends
Work is still going fantasticlly well, I love it. The people I work with are so amazing and I am definitely building friendships. Tim and I went out for a drink a couple weeks ago, which to be honest, I was nervous about. It actually was really fun though. We just went to Ol’ Mexico and had some drink and some much needed good conversation. He is just one of those guys that is going to have to go in that same category as Joel and Mike and such. Hopefully we will meet up again in the future. I also have been going back and forth with Kelcee who was my very best friend when I was younger. Hopefully it will actually turn into hanging out and not just talking about it.
Random-
I am going out to NY again NOV 7-11th just for a long weekend. My brother is going as well, so that is something to look forward to. I feel like I am owed another trip to Hawaii, but I am not sure how to bring that up in conversation. I will be honest, I am very much enjoying living at home. I love going home after work and just being around my parents. I think seeing them this happy is in turn making me really happy.
That is all of an update I got for now.
Peace