Excuse me, to busy writing your tragedy

I havent really updated in a while

I have actually been avoiding it.

And the entries I have written, have been really vague.

So where do I start?

School:

Still going well. I am liking my english class more and more now, the only thing I dislike is how much work it is. I guess I dont really like that it is 4 hours long either, but getting done March 3rd will be nice. That will free up 2 days of classes, nice. My ‘How to study’ class is gay. We dont do anything, and I have that annoying kis in there. "didnt you go to Blaine?" "IS THAT SUMMER?!?!?!"

haha

boys:

Is there really anything tp update in this catagory? lol. Mainly the Nick issue I guess. That night I had my ‘[anic attack’ I went over to his house because he said he really needed to talk to someone. Little did I know, he was wasted. He tried to kiss me, and when I told him no, he tried again. It was the way he tried that made me really freak out. So I pushed him away and left. Friday he cameover along with everyone else, and it was fine, I pretty much ignored him and got to drunk to care. He apparently got jealous because I was in a locked room having a conversation with Erik. Speaking of Erik.I had never really had a in depth conversation with him..and as he was talking..I sorta got the butterfly feelings going on. So then he ended up looking for the Mr. Brightside tabs so he could play it for me…That was that..I have a crush. So everyone left super late, I called Nick and yelled at him for being a fucker..Turns out he tried to make out with Al on the way to my party..and I am in NO way getting back into another one of those situations. So there were a few people that passed out in my bed. I just had this rush go through me. I yelled "Erik you can sleep in the bed with all fo then, or there is room in in there with me.." So he came in..laid down and held my hand, and we fell asleep together. Feelings are just popping up. Why hadn;t I seen it before? it was weird..and it has just been pretty normal since then..

So that was that. That whole situation freaked me out. Just scared me I guess.

Jimmy:

I dont know what to say about this. I dont know where we stand, I dont know. Things are good one minute and bad the next. it gets scary because it feels that when things are starting to look up, you cant help but wonder what is going to make it go bad again. the last couple times we have hung out, I have been having a really good time. sO the friends thing may be achieved..but who knows

so I dont know what else to say about that.

random things:

I have been super stressed. Money is once again an issue. I have 9$ in my bank account, and I need 400 by Feb 3rd. Its a problem. So I got a lot of stuff together, IE my gamecube, a TV, VCR, CD’s, clothes and other stuff to go pawn off. I havent gone yet, but I know I will have too. Unless I get my loan in a week, which I wont because I havent even applied for one yet. I have been actually trying to find a new job, but havent had much luck. I think I am going to do some sort of nanny job, mainly because they pay a shitload of money. All of the positions I looked at dont pay less then 10$ an hour. And I like being around kids, so it wouldnt be so bad. I am trying to re-arrange my classes a bit so I will have a better schedule to work around. Nicole moves in a week from tuesday, and I am really excited. I am pretty sure /I wont find another roomate in a week, so I think my sister will have to stay here another month, which is ok.

My goal this week is to go to my classes on friday. I havent been to a friday class since school started. its just cause that math class is soooo stupid! But I will this week.

I am gonna try and get to sleep

~*Bri*~