And so it begins

So tomorrow is my first day back at school…but really it is my first day. It being a new school and all.

I just got done revising my schedule for the last time. I decided not to drop my ‘how to study’ class quite yet. So tomorrow at 11, that is where I will be.

We all went over to Erik’s again and watched the OC, good times. Yeah, that weird vibe? I felt it too. Everyone but Pete goes back tomorrow, so sorta the last night before school thing. Doesnt really matter to be since my earliest class all week is at 11. ooo

I was like "Meghan, who will I eat lunch with and sit by in class?" Seriously, I have to start all over now. Except, Matt goes there too, so hopefully I will find him!

Im nervous.

Last night was a bit drama filled. First of all, before I even went out, it took a slight turn for the worse. So when I got to the pool hall, I was not to optimistic about the evening. But we all went back to Erik’s and I got to listen to stupid Al talk about all the stupid shit she talks about. ugh. Matt got there which provided the comic relief, then Nick showed up. So we were all just hanging out up there, I started drinking pretty much right after everyone else got there. I had 3 shots and had a little buzz going. I was being quiet and weird on purpose. No one else really noticed. Nick was just fucking reatrded drunk and kept being like "Al, you were the greatest girlfriend" I was like just, wow. So Erik tried to make me smile "HI BRI". It just pisses me off, I mean Meghan knows I dont really like that Al girl, and I hate that she always omits the fact that she is over there. So I lied with Nick asked me what was wrong, and when everyone kept saying things to me, i played it off like I was tired.

So yeah a few other people got there which made it awkward for Meghan and she decided to leave. Erik brought her and al home. Things start to look up a little after I came back from downstairs. So I am sitting on the bed looking over Nicks shoulder, and I see that he is texting Al. It says something like" Yuo were the greatest thing that happened to me, I miss you" . It actually just makes all of these thoughts flood into my head which had nothing to do with anyone there. So I get my shit and I leave. Nick tries to stop me because he knows I am tipsy, but I seriously just bust outta there.

I got in my car, called Meghan and told her I was leaving and what was wrong. Yeah then i made the mistake phone call. I called Jimmy. I just cried saying "What is it about me that makes people lie and think they can hurt and walk all over me, why do you lie all the time.." bla bla

it was a fun conversation. I drove home and after I hung up with JImmy, I called Nick to tell him why I left, embarassing sort of. I guess I sort of made sense because he and Meghan both understood why I left. Making sense when I talked to Jimmy though..I dont think I did a good job on  doing that. I guess I felt the need to try and understand everything last night.

So yeah, thats my story.

I wish tonight would have gone a bit differently, but oh well

I am stuck right now

I am excited to go tomorrow though.

We’ll see what happens

~*Bri*~