NoJoMo 03 – Younger Self

NOJOMO Challenge:

Dear Young One,

You are so smart and thoughtful. But you need to have more self confidence in yourself. You have always worked so hard to do well inschool and make others like you. KEEP up the hard work in school, but work on loving yourself more!

Sam is your bestfriend, and will always be there for you, but you HAVE to keep in touch with your friends more. You tended to start slacking, and lost some close friends.

STAY AWAY from fast food. You will meet your first love, who is a great boy, but he eats Fastfood, and you will gain so much wieght, when you look beautiful the way you are!!!

DON"T date Roger! He will cause you to selfdestruct!
Get in as much time with Louie as you can, that way you have even more memories to cherish when he leaves.

Stay positive, life is going to be very rough for you. Your going to be broken hearted and let down. But keep being the person everyone sees in you.. because in the end you deserve so much more credit than you give yourself.

Love,

Future Kris

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so then I worked on my own today. Teresa (co-worker) was out due to her ankle. Hope she is ok!

Something is off with me today, not sure what, but I was so disappointed with myself. I wieghed myself lastnight for the first time in a week and I had GAINED 2 lbs… 🙁  BUT when i weighed myself this morning. It showed that i LOST 2lbs from my wieght the week prior. (Maybe it was the olive garden dinner I had.. i don’t know, or maybe i had too many clothes on… meh. 
Monday are my "purge" days. They are the day that i will allow myself to have a little freedom with my food and drink choices. 

I stayed at work till 630pm (CRAZY since I am free to leave at 530). After work I head to the grocery store. Thao and Dan are both not answering the phone, so I just bought what i thought we needed and what i want. Then I came home, washed the dishes, put food away, started some clothes im on load 2 about to be load 3 here in a min. Then I jumped onto the laptop. 

I made a mistake today… I got really weak and called Paul.. and he answered. The convo went like this:
Me: "Oh hi, didn’t think you were going to pick up"
Paul: "Hey. Whats up?   … Why wouldn’t I pick up?"
Me: "Dunno , figured you were still avoiding me."
Paul: "I wouldn’t avoid you.  I have thought about you. I miss you"
Me: "that is not fair tosay. You know I am going to respond with that same thing"
Paul: "So you miss me too?"
Me: "I guess that explains why i called you"
Paul: (laughing) "Why DID u call?"
Me:" No reason. Guess.. I was just bored."
Paul: "Well thank you for doing that. Geoff and I are going to hangout for a few. What are you up to tonight."
Me: "Just shopping and doing some things around the apartment. Why ?"
Paul: "I like to see you again sometime… I miss you."
Me: "You have had many chances to see me,… you chose not to.  Look I am going to go…. I don’t know why i called. Weak moment I guess"
Paul:"Ok, well lets make plans to see each other. Soon? Ok??    ….. Goodbye."
Me: "(silence till phone disconnected)"

THAN I texted him and said. "Sorry I called. That was pointless."
He replied: "I wanted to tell you i love you, but I didn’t want to upset you, but i really wanted to tell you I love you,Don’t be mad"

My reply: "You could have said it. I can’t stop you from feeling what you feel. but don’t say it just to say it."
My reply still (he has sprint  and i have Verizon) :  "didn’t mean to waste that five mins."
Him :  "I would like to chat more later ok??? Will you?"

— I didn’t respond.  LAME im weak! anyways.. yah. that was my day. im starting to get hungry and its late! HAH