In defense

I got halfway through writing an entry trying to defend Noah (because after the last entry, everyone hates him), but I realized I still think he was wrong. So I just erased that.

He did apologize, at least, and said he really didn’t mean to make me feel bad, or to imply that he’s not happy with the way I look now. He just was trying to be honest, the way I always want him to be honest if I ask which shirt looks better, or if he likes my hair done a certain way. I pointed out that I didn’t ask him for his opinion on my weight, he just came right out and offered it, and he said that’s fair and he’s sorry.

There’s really not much more to talk about with him on the topic. It’s always frustrating when someone hurts you, and apologizes, because the hurt can’t really be undone, but after he’s apologized I feel like I’m supposed to just pretend it never happened. Because what good would come of harping on it? He said it, it hurt me, and he said sorry. Making him repeatedly apologize won’t make me feel better, so it starts to feel like I’m just wanting to make him feel as bad as I feel, which isn’t really what I want.

So I guess I just move past it, feel hurt, and don’t talk about it again. And try to work out some more or something.