Sick baby

My poor little baby has a cold. 🙁

She’s seriously the calmest baby ever, though…everything I’ve looked up on how to deal with a cold talks about what to do with a fussy baby, and she’s not being fussy at all. She’s extra tired, and looks kind of sad, but she still gives me big smiles and cuddles, and hasn’t been crying much at all. The only time she really gets upset is when she tries to eat, because she can’t breathe through her nose so it’s a little hard for her to latch on and breathe at the same time.

So I’m a little worried she isn’t getting enough to eat, but I suppose if she was really hungry she’d let me know, right? Hopefully this won’t last very long.

I have more I meant to write about, but when I think about what I was going to say, I’m pretty sure it’s just more of the same crap. And I think everyone is probably really sick of my whole Noah/Mike thing, so I won’t go all into analyzing stuff again.

I did briefly make up my mind the other day to end it with Noah and try to find a way to be with Mike. I was all set to talk to Noah about it, and then I looked at him and couldn’t do it. I love them both. I don’t really seem able to sort it out, and I’m a little scared that it’s just going to go on like it is until something falls apart in a really bad way.