Updates and bits

I tend to just write whatever is on my mind, and then I don’t think to ever give updates on most of the little things I write about. So I get a lot of "hey, what did you ever do about…?" and "whatever happened to…?" type notes. And I have a little time and nothing in particular I want to say today, so I’ll just see if I can remember all the things I never updated about.

Baby’s last name….I decided I’m fine with her having Noah’s. So I didn’t even bring it up to him as something that had really ever been a question, and he (I think) just assumed it would be his name, especially since we’re engaged. I thought about it, and realized that regardless of how things work between Noah and me, he’ll always be a part of HER life, so there’s no good reason she can’t just have his name. Plus, I like his last name better than mine, anyway.

Wedding plans….there are none, at the moment. Which kind of sucks, because I always have felt like I didn’t want to be one of those people who gets engaged and then can’t commit to a date, so we just stay engaged indefinitely. But I don’t know…things feel kind of up in the air right now. Noah is pushing to set a date, and I’m not 100% sure it will actually happen so I really don’t want to commit to a date right now, but I also can’t keep putting it off. So I don’t know, I don’t really like thinking about the engagement thing right now. Which is probably why I haven’t written anything about it in a long time.

Mike….still in love with him. Still daydream all the time about running away to be with him. There’s really not much to update, though. I just need to make up my mind, and I’m not sure how to do that! (I have more to say about it, but really nothing I want to write here for now)

Money….I didn’t go ahead with the whole "joint account" idea. We haven’t really figured out much with money, and I’m stalling on this as well as the wedding stuff, because I first need to figure out whether we’re actually going to get married!

Guy from playgroup….there’s just honestly nothing to update on, but I keep getting questions about it. 🙂 So yes, we hang out, and no, it’s not weird. It’s 100% platonic, Noah doesn’t care…so really nothing at all to say about it. He’s a friend. (and to the people who keep telling me that guys can’t be friends with a girl without wanting to fuck her, I just don’t fully agree with that. And he did babysit for me the other day so I could go surprise Noah with a lunch date….so I’m pretty sure he’s secure in the knowledge that he’s in the "friend zone")

Work….probably deserves its own entry. But tomorrow I’m meeting with my boss, and planning to tell him that I’m not coming back at the end of my maternity leave, that I MIGHT be ready to come back in another couple months, but I’ll understand if they don’t hold the job for me. And I’m really fine with however that plays out.

Baby weight….I haven’t lost much at all. 🙁 I’m hovering right around 120 at the moment, and that number doesn’t seem to want to move anywhere. I’m not stressing about it, though, and feel like even though it’s the most I’ve ever weighed, I’m actually the happiest I’ve ever been with my body. Which is…weird.

That’s all I can think of to update on for now! Let me know if I forgot anything. 🙂