Update

I try not to write too many random baby stuff entries, because I’m sure they’re boring to read. But since a majority of my day is spent on baby stuff, that’s what I’m going to write about today!

Little update on Baby…

She’s almost 6 weeks old. The time is really flying by, and she doesn’t look like a "newborn" anymore. Which is both a good thing (since she looks less and less breakable by the day), but also a little sad. I have a feeling she’s going to be in kindergarten before I know it.

She sleeps GREAT!! Except….she will only sleep in her stroller (technically a carseat, but it snaps into a stroller), or on me. I’ve tried a few times to get her to fall asleep in her crib, and she’s having none of it. So I put her in her little seat, walk her up and down the hall for 15-ish minutes, and she’s out, and stays asleep for 5-6 hours at a time, wakes up to eat, I walk her again, and she’s out again. It’s great, but I feel a little guilty about it because I’m not sure she’s really supposed to sleep there!

I’ve finally gotten the hang of feeding her. It’s still much more comfortable to feed her with my little pillow arrangement on the couch, but if I need to I can get her fed pretty much anywhere, which is a big relief because I no longer feel like I’m totally stuck at home. And I can feed her while my computer is in my lap, which will come in very handy if I go back to work in a few weeks.

Speaking of which, I have no idea what to do about work!! My maternity leave is up right around Christmas, and I just feel like there’s no way I’ll be ready to go back yet. But I’m also not really ready to officially "quit" and be an official stay-at-home mom. That would require a massive identity adjustment that I’m not ready to make. I wish I could just have another few months of maternity leave and delay the decision!

Baby is smiling now!!! I love it, especially because she saves her very biggest smiles for me. When I set her down for a few minutes, and then come back, she smiles really big when she sees me, and it just melts my heart. She has the cutest little toothless grin ever.

I’m really starting to feel comfortable with this whole motherhood thing. It doesn’t really feel that hard (maybe I’ll change my mind on that once she learns to walk?). I have a few assorted baby carriers, and she always loves being in those, so any time I need to go anywhere, I just strap her to me and go, and she’s happy.

I’ve gone to a couple other playgroups, and they’re not bad. I just hate that making friends takes so much time and effort….I’m not used to putting this much work into it, because I’m not usually thinking about trying to "make friends." But I need people to hang out with during the day, when all the normal people are working. So I’m trying to just have the playgroups be my social interaction for now, and hope that eventually I’ll actually have some real friends.

I did hang out with Josh a bit, without Noah or Josh’s wife, and it wasn’t weird at all. We just went and had coffee with the babies in tow, and talked about baby stuff, and he gave me an update on the drama with his baby’s birthmother (they adopted him….I can’t remember if I mentioned that here). Very harmless.

So that’s pretty much my life lately. Baby is a lot of work, but I don’t really mind any of it, and I’m losing some sleep, but I don’t really mind that either. It’s a little crazy how the maternal instincts work….the less I think about it, the easier it is to take care of her.