11 weeks w/ belly pic *grumble*

I wrote this entry on my phone, so sorry if its screwy.
 
I was going to write this in a F/O entry but I am trying to have a different mindset about it and NOT be ashamed of my body, so there’s no need.
 
Bryan took my first belly pic of this pregnancy last night and I was totally shocked by it.  It looks like my 20-week belly pic with Emily..maybe bigger?  I joked about it at first but then noticed I was feeling down later and I know that’s why.  Maybe it was the angle of the picture?  Maybe that’s how it really looks?  Agg.  Not that there’s anything I can do about it, lol.  
 
I gained one pound according to the dr’s scale and lost one according to mine..so I don’t think it’s a weight gain issue.  I honestly think its because I did zero ab or core strengthening between my pregnancy with Emily and now.  I have no muscles holding it in!  So, it is what it is.

 
This is the pic he took yesterday:

 
This is me at 15-weeks with Emily:

 

This is a picture I snapped real quick this morning, and this is what I see in the mirror when I look at myself!! :

 
I keep giving myself pep talks today about it, because it’s not like I can start doing crunches and do anything about it now.  It’s only going to get bigger!  Much bigger!  But the very few stretch marks I do have are practically invisible.  I never got the saggy skin or mom belly.  I just have to keep my hopes up that I will gain roughly the same this pregnancy and will look similar afterwards.  I would be okay with that.  I never did ab exercises because, well, I’d honestly rather spend all my extra time with Emily instead of exercise, but also because my stomach didn’t buy me enough to do anything about it!

 
Here is a picture of me a month and a half before I got pregnant:

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See?  Not bad!  I’m just going to give myself a break I guess.  I think I will be much more motivated after this pregnancy to do strength training though.  I’m not worried about losing the weight..but I clearly need more muscle.  Yeesh.
 
I feel great otherwise, and I’m very thankful for that!  I’ve been sleeping pretty good and haven’t been too nauseous.  I have days I’m a little uneasy with food still, but it’s nothing major.  Honestly everything sounds horrid to eat right now.  That will pass soon I’m sure! =)
 
Time seems to be going by quickly in this pregnancy now.  I think I mentioned it before, but after the ultrasound on the 26th, if everything looks good, we’re going to tell everyone.  Then cervix measurements start at 16 weeks, which is when they told us Emily was a girl, so it’s all coming up really quick!  In two weeks I’ll be in the second trimester!  Just going to think positive and believe everything will work out.  No spotting since the one incident, so that’s nice.
 
We have a burglary trial at work and I’m busy, so I’ll leave it at that for now.
 
~Sheralyn