Clarification please?!?!?!?

wow this is a switch S. (my first) im’ed me tonite basically talked abotu us (me n S and our history together). I haven’t talked to him since he told me he got married. now he’s saying his wife is wanteing to leave him. really doesn’t surprise me. now that both J. And S. have gone to bed well i get the worst feeling in my stomach that telling J, that S. ime’d me wasn’t the smartest thing to do. however, because of s. and my past history withS. i felt compelled to tell J.

Mom went in town with me and when she tried to get cash none of her atm pws were working, Im broke, and going to be broker. *sighZ* i hate having to borrow money from J.

Life just went down the tubes again. I fear this converstation with shannon or any further contact with him will destory j’s and my relationship, but i feel that it shouldn’t if our love is strong enough… OH god don’t tell me i fucked up tonite by having a simple converstation, but thats what it feels like.. But i feel like i got answers tonite, answers that somehow i subconconisly needed? Not sure. now all there is, is a sinking feeling in my gut.and more insomnia to follow.