did i say i had problems? I meant im a wreck….

well here today i got the biggest bombshell of my life… I knew J was thinking about that we had rushed things a bit but i never really thought that he was thinking about calling it quits till today… I owe this all to one of his yahoo six buddies who through me in his face saying she was waiting for him and all this blah blah garbage.. she didn’t call him when she had his number or nuthin…

now he’s scared he’s going to go in the psych ward. I  have no freaking Money. and life just blows cus i can’t find a job and i found out that i could possibly lose the love of my life…  God why does life have to be so freaking unfair. U guys say i have a good man i do i know i do… And i dont want to give him up ever. *sighZ* but i may have to and then i dont knwo what i will do because i can’t find a freaking job to help out.!!