LIfe bitching

I know i will eventually move out of where i currently live…   Im not happy there… I dont know if i’ve changed or my roomie has changed or its just all in my head. Maybe it is all n my head…  im not sure… i just get the feeling of not being wanted there because of my flaws… I AM NOT THE CLEANEST house keeper in the world that was my GRANDMOTHER the NEAT FREAK. i like to be messy i like for a house to look lived in…..  yet everything i do seems to get passed over… cus its so small…. I am a loner person i’ve been that way all my life yea i had friends for 12-13 years of the basic school that everyone goes through n then they turned their backs on me as soon as we graduated. WTF is up with that?

Im not very out going n until i met my roomie not a single one of my “so called” friends did anythign with me out side of school!.

….. to be continued i have to go to class…

 I have read my roomies diary here and i think somethings are getting mis represented to her… but then again maybe its how she wants to c things…. im not sure. me n J have been talking about moving in together  n him getting a job down here so i can continue my education n we can see each other every day.

And im seriously hopping it happens soon like within the next 3-or 4 months… not careing about what my mom says…..about not being christian n blah n blah…. i hope he finds a job down here soon cus hes actively looking for jobs in my area… 😀 i know he really cares about me …. its so wierd …. its like this feeling when we are together……that we just belong together!! n that scares me. i am however going to see him tonite. YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY….:D my sis. gave me a shock yesterday by doing the child hood K-I-S-S-I-N-G game… to me… about m n J.

thats all i care to vent… about right now lataz….