11/28/03

Well damn. i hate being the pissy one… but i just felt like killing my self lately n just not bothering to live anymore. thats how bad things seem right now. I felt like i was repeating cycles of my feelings n i just couldn’t handle it.. at all.. i was going crazy inside of my self.

Middle Of Nowhere-
With You In Your Dreams
Hanson

If I’m gone when you wake up please don’t cry
And if I’m gone when you wake up it’s not goodbye
Don’t look back at this time as a time of heartbreak and distress
Remember me, remember me, ’cause I’ll be with you in your dreams

Oh I’ll be with you
If I’m gone when you wake up please don’t cry
And if I’m gone when you wake don’t ask why
Don’t look back at this time as a time of heartbreak and distress
Remember me, remember me, ’cause I’ll be with you in your dreams

Don’t cry I’m with you don’t cry I’m by your side
Don’t cry I’m with you don’t cry I’m by your side
And though my flesh is gone
I’ll still be with you at all times
And though my body is gone
Hoo, ohh
I’ll be there to comfort you at all times
Hoo, ohh, hoo, ohh

‘Cause if I’m gone when you wake up please don’t cry
And if I’m gone when you wake up it’s not goodbye
Don’t look back at this time as a time of heartbreak and distress
Remember me, remember me, ’cause I’ll be with you
Hooo. Ohh ‘Cause I’ll be with you

I don’t want you to cry and weep, Hoo Ohh
I want you to go on livin’ your life
I’m not sleepin’ an endless sleep, Hoo Ohh
‘Cause in your heart you all have good times

Hoo ‘Cause I’ll be with you in your dreams

that song brings back a lot of memories of the ending of seventh grade and the begining of 8th grade. i’ve been listening to it alot lately… i dont know if its because of my depressed state or whats going on… inside of my self. my emotions have left the building n im floundering in between. i feel so hard n i fall so quickly in n out of love… what the hell… yes im ugly u dont have to rub it in my face… aww Hell… IM just gonna walk away before i get pissed off again… lataz peoplez