My married soul mate….

i Ache

I hunger

 i thirst

Nothing is ever enough

but it has to be ….

My world has crashed n burned n so has urs.

But it seems the more time i spend geting to know u

the more im Addicted to u… Wildly spinnin out of control.

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Im hopelessly addicted to a married man… thats a given.. but we friends more than anything else n neither of us wants to push that boundary of crossin the line.. but its so hard with PMSing… n the hormonal inbalance because of the pill, hell if i could i think i would jump his bones… if ya know what i mean the way im feeling right now..im that messed up… i Can’t concentrate on my hw or work or anything i just think about him n block out the rest of the world… Plus i mite be movin out of me apartment and into a house with one of my college friends… Her grandparents will let her use it as long as i am her roomie.. only gonna cost me $175 dollars in rent which is cheaper for me…. so if i disppear for awhile that means im in the process of movin to a house…. the only rule that really upsets me is no Men are allowed to stay the nite… n i crave that so much… Blah…. who the hell knows i dont have a bf… n i dont want one right now i want to keep my options open just because of my married soul mate..  I dont care about the prior record, or the fact that he has a son or that hes nine years older than me, or that hes married to a witch either…. i care because of who he is n what hes taught me about my self… dotn settle for the lesser things in life…. if hes there by my side i fink i can get  through life… without im just the lost little girl inside n the big girl outside….