Me n S.’s Convo tonite

s: oh ya

LftBhndW2002: what?

LftBhndW2002: u need something sweetie?

s: having fun over there?

: oh ya

LftBhndW2002: i bet… u are..

LftBhndW2002: im so bored…

s: too bad you dont have a car :-

s: 😉

LftBhndW2002: i know …. 🙁 its depressing..

LftBhndW2002: just have to have my dreams i guess.

LftBhndW2002: *searches for her porn folder*

LftBhndW2002: okies im back now

LftBhndW2002: 😛

LftBhndW2002: so ur still busy i take it..

s: no

s: have nothing to say though]

LftBhndW2002: i feel better just talking to u..

s: bout wat

LftBhndW2002: nothign… ur company.. ur words just make me feel better… i didn’t realize that was a crime..

LftBhndW2002: especailly after a stress filled day.

s: its not i just dont have anything to talk about

LftBhndW2002: if u really want we could talk about my problems…

s: sure

LftBhndW2002: my grams is worse.. my uncles causing trouble.. im worried about my mom… my friend is going througha suicidal phase over grades. where u want to start?

s: wherever you want

LftBhndW2002: if my grams going all hell is going to break lose on my mom’s side of the family and it will be just like it was when my dad died 16 years ago fight to keep anythign of hers… which is sad that it has to be like that. but between my grams bitchy siblings, and her money crazed son… my mom’s about to get shit on again in her life and she don’t need that not as a cancer survivor she dont need taht

s: no one does but its a part of life

LftBhndW2002: my mom’s stress level is twice what it should be at her age… financail troubles, taking care of her mom by herself… cus my uncle refuses to take my grams one weekend at all… i give up my weekends and socail life to help my mom out… so she doesn’t have to be so stressed out with work, and tryign to make things meet..

LftBhndW2002: cus im closet to her… i feel like if i dont help out at all then ill lose her

LftBhndW2002: and grams

LftBhndW2002: i just want to hurt somethign right now.. weather its me or the bloody wall

s: im sorry

LftBhndW2002: im too young for this shit is what is the problem..

s: we all are

LftBhndW2002: add to that… my friend being put into a major that she doesn’t belong in order to get her rents to pay for college.. So shes having a tough time and shes failing one of the important classes as well as being behind. She just wants to die.. too. She should be a art major not a computer major.. I could personally kill her rents for waht they have done to her… they have ruined a good artist someone who can draw better than my sis..

s: its their money

LftBhndW2002: yeah but they know shes a artist not a network person.. how could u force ur child to miserable?

s: she has a choice

s: get loans

s: its thier right

LftBhndW2002: she doesn’t have any credit

s: student loans

LftBhndW2002: u still need credit

s: not really

s: she can get a job too

LftBhndW2002: its crazy… but her and i have the same feelings lately… just wantign a way out of this world, sick of dealing with pain day in and day out.. at our school u do… what time job pays enough for Rent, gas, food, College tution?

s: save up

LftBhndW2002: she doesn’t have the money…

LftBhndW2002: her rents got her savings account cus she bailed em out

s: so shes not handed the world on a silver platter neither do 3 billion others?

s: wat?

LftBhndW2002: she bailed her rents out of debt with her savings..

s: ok so go work and save more

LftBhndW2002: other wise she could have on her own..

LftBhndW2002: u know how hard it is to find a job in springfield?

s: orf course

s: such is life

LftBhndW2002: if ur not over 21 its like almost impossible.

LftBhndW2002: cus right now gas stations, and bars are hirign

LftBhndW2002: and then another person from college is tryign to get away from a abusive guy… which is a headache and a half to listen to let alone offer advice…

LftBhndW2002: i trying to be supportive…but if she even begins to have a backbone he’ll beat the shit out of her

LftBhndW2002: which is scary in itself

s: call the polic

LftBhndW2002: their in the process of getting a divorce its not final yet.. theres not a whole lot she can do that hasn’t been done already

s: i guess

s: if she wont get police protection i dont feel sorry fr her

LftBhndW2002: she is in the process of getting a restraining order but because of their divorce or somethign its being held up

LftBhndW2002: i dont know the legal workings of these things….

LftBhndW2002: i can’t stand for others to be in pain… i think thats part of my problem… i can’t take pain anymore… but i can’t stand to see others in it eitehr

s: ya

LftBhndW2002: ya… at least being with u allows me to forget for a few hours… and sometimes i really need that

LftBhndW2002: a nice break from my reality… and just concentrating on enjoyment and pleasure

s: always good

LftBhndW2002: yep it is..

LftBhndW2002: 🙂

LftBhndW2002: so thanx sweetie..

s: yeah but you cant be dependent on me like that because i wont be there for long

LftBhndW2002: i know that…. but right ur what i got…

LftBhndW2002: although u are closer than NY, which is where i would have to go if i truely wanted to just let go…

LftBhndW2002: i can’t go to NY for 6months at a time… i just can’t afford it.. my soulmate is in Ny.. ur waht i got… so please… let it be and when its gone its gone..

s: well i gotta go

s: im falling asleep

LftBhndW2002: okies. alright… as long as i didn’t scare u..

s: night

LftBhndW2002: sweet dreams