Pondering,Wondering, and confused.

I can’t belive this. i had a conversation about fooling around with one of my guy friends from HS, I’ve refered to him as skip in the past. AND he’s told me in certain terms that he didn’t like me like that and now were openly having a converstation about foolign around. where has my mind been?

Or for that matter whats going that i haven’t noticed? skip’s never really was open to talking about that kind of thing and now its like all we talk about it is sex and my writign depressing things in here. im not sure where this is going, with him. its been so long since i have seen him. He’s a part of my past that i can’t let go of.he was one of my rock’s before i graduated but geez. i think somehow i broaden his horizens or someone else did. now i dont know what to think about our current friendship.

ALong anothter note. one of my oldest online buddies. says hes getting all his girls something for vday and he asked me waht i wanted i said i wanted his presence but since ny is kind of far away i’d settle for a vermont teddy bear. wow. its nice to be asked what i for VDAY but im not sure ill get it. but i might. the whole thing threw me for a loop. i got class at nine am and its 11:30p.m. and i have to put a computer together so i goign to get some sleep cherios.

oh a month from 2-11-03 is my bday and ill actually turn 19. 🙂