Why am i always SO confused ??

If ya read me u guys know about my date that i went on, and since then hes called and we talked a few times. now each time i try to talk to him lately its like hes ignoring me. im not sure what the heck is going on or where i stand. last time i talked to him was friday and then he said talk to ya in a bit and its been almost 48 hours and he still hasn’t gotten back to me? thats the most confusing thing of all.—- Talked to him, saved im convo as private entry sorry guys.

I guess i should give up on trying to have a relationship with guys all it does is make me a emotional mess, break my heart, or leave me so freaking confused i dont have a clue as to what to do. I try to be open and honest, but no one seems to appreaciate that either, everytime i think i meet a guy who could be bf potential i get the same old speel, we’re friends lets keep it that way. WHY Whats wrong with me? why can’t a guy be more than friends with me? Respect me for who I am, and just be as honest and open as i am with him to me? why is that so hard?

here i am about to cry because it pains me to see another valentines day ALONE im SICK OF BEING ALONE. all the guys i know have significant others. WHEN THE HELL WILL IT BE MY TURN? AM I destined to be alone for the rest of my life? I sure as hell hope not i dont want to be alone anymore it sucks, especaily every feb 14, Dec. 25, and Newyears. It really does. I hate it I hate I hate its like my only friend is my computer because it wont lie to me or break my heart.

Appologies for the the long rant but i couldn’t keep it inside any longer…

Latazz