1/22/02

I cry

I can’t sleep

I’m being haunted in my thoughts

The more I think the worse it hurts.

How can he do this to me?

NOT AGAIN… I thought I got past this

I thought I learned this lesson

But here it is staring me down so I

feel miserable.

Am I repeating my past? Am I flirting with fire?

I know im putting feelings where they shouldn’t be

but how do i stop this?

The more I try to be myself the more I come across as touchy~ feely person. or a flirty bitch. i end up pushing away. I come on too strong to some peeps and not to others.

where do I belong? how do i fit into this world where i barely make it day to day? there’s not a day that goes by that i wonder why i am here.

Please say i need to be here for a reason. i dont know i want to give up and go away but there is a tug that says no not yet….

I frequently ask myself some of these same questions.

I know what you feel like, because about ten seconds ago, I got that same exact feeling. Sorry I haven’t been around leaving notes much, but when I get the chance, I am writing in my diary and not much else. You are in the world for a reason, and so am I. Neither of us know that reason yet, but we’ll figure it out sooner or later, so just hang in there, cutie! ~*~Laura~*~ xoxoxo