I dont do surprises very well

Last night i finally made it on around 6 or so and one of my friends from school was online and he preceded to tell me his major secret, something im not sure i can handle as a secret. but i promised i wouldn’t tell another soul what it was. and now it continues to play through my mind, what the hell is wrong with that.

Im gettin run down or something shit i have never been so scatterbrained before and forgot a complete hw assignment. so i finished it somewhat after my shower. my mom’s probably ready to kill me for it. oh weel.

my two romantic interests and I are growign apart so i dont know what to do about it. the mixed guy from vocational and I are acting like its no big deal but really it is, because if he asked or wanted it id let him take my virinity. and the same goes for my other romantic interest SKIp. Life is getting worse skip and i rarely talk anymore and if we do its hi hello and goodbye all within a few moments. thats not talking to each other its just like greeting a irritable person. so who knows. Im at a lost in this area i just dont know. cus i have no experiance in this area. My best girl bud shes getting laid and has been ever since the 7th grade i think when she got into drugs and cigerettes the first time. how can she be so lucky it sucks.

well thats my long ramble for tonite its 11:34 p.m. and i need some energy working out again tomorrow ugh… sorness major lataz all