what a surprise i didn’t expect to be told
KaG8402: hey was up
Anarchy449: hey
Anarchy449: the graveyard thing…….it wasnt a date
KaG8402: i know it just felt like one in my mind
Anarchy449: ok
Anarchy449: just making sure
Anarchy449: i have a girlfriend
KaG8402: who and why didn’t u tell me of this?
Anarchy449: her name is kate, and she goes to st. T
Anarchy449: i dont know why i didnt say anything, i just…. didnt
KaG8402: well thats good for u …. i glad ur happy with someone
Anarchy449: even though it wont work
KaG8402: why wont it?
Anarchy449: her parents hate me and they wont let her do anything
KaG8402: why do they hate u?
KaG8402: ur such a sweetie
Anarchy449: her dad wants me to die
Anarchy449: because im different
KaG8402: ur different how?
Anarchy449: they’re catholic, im christian
Anarchy449: i wear all black, chains, spikes……..
Anarchy449: blue hair………
Anarchy449: im not “normal” so they dont like me
KaG8402: isn’t that what god warns about judging others
Anarchy449: yes
KaG8402: why dont they see that
Anarchy449: i have no idea
KaG8402: and shouldn’t they be more worried about what their doing to their daughteR?
Anarchy449: yeah
Anarchy449: they think im going to take her away and were going to have sex
KaG8402: my mom trusted me with and shes worried about the same dam thing …. that says something
Anarchy449: the difference is, you would like to, and she wouldnt
KaG8402: yah but i did control myself and didn’t allow myself to jeperdize our friendship either i hope
Anarchy449: yeah
Anarchy449: you did
KaG8402: 🙂 i think im just going to sit out in solitude tomorrow
KaG8402: just so i can think and try to get my life in order
Anarchy449 signed off at 9:27:57 PM.
Anarchy449 signed on at 9:28:01 PM.
KaG8402: 🙂 i think im just going to sit out in solitude tomorrow
KaG8402: just so i can think and try to get my life in order
Anarchy449: you really need to start being happy
KaG8402: i know but i can never be happy its just my fate
Anarchy449: no its not
Anarchy449: dont feed me that shit
Anarchy449: just ignore the crap and be happy
KaG8402: how can i ignore the shit when all i get is shit for my efforts?
Anarchy449: you think popular people dont bother me???
Anarchy449: i get shit all the time
Anarchy449: jsut this morning, people were throwing things in my face and in my hair
KaG8402: no i get shit from my so called friends i get shit from people who aren’t even my friends everywhere i go i get shit
Anarchy449: so do i
KaG8402: im just going to retreat into my self thanx
Anarchy449: i’ve tried it, it doesnt help
Anarchy449: i was in a depression too
KaG8402: u are no where near anyhting that i have been lets not talk about this ok
Anarchy449: fine
Anarchy449: what do you want to talk about
KaG8402: if u new how i felt about u why didn’t u tell me u had a girlfriend? i was being honest with u and u didn’t even think to tell me that?
KaG8402: that hurts me a whole lot
Anarchy449: i didnt want you to be mad
KaG8402: Skip why would i be mad? im mad now that u didn’t tell me. its not like we were dating. i just love u to peices and u knwo that and we aren’t going farther. so if u told me u had a gf i would just have accepted it no questions asked
Anarchy449: and i told you, and now your mad
Anarchy449: like i though
Anarchy449: t
KaG8402: thats because u didn’t tell me earlier like SUNDAY
Anarchy449: were not dating, i thought it didnt matter
KaG8402: well u thought wrong i would at least like ot congradulate u on ur gf and now if u please i would like to be alone to deal with my pain. thank you
what a way to end a day. listening to ur fave t.v. show Raw is War. u get online to do some homework for my new page that im making and start talking to skip . and i get the shock of my life. i dont need this. i really dont. i thought he and i could tell each other everything apparently i was dead wrong. i wouldn’t have been mad if he had told me before he took me to the cemetary. but after just kind of ruins the effect that i thought the cemetary had. the effect im talking is strengthing our friendship. we actually did something besides going to a dance. i thought that would help our friendship now it probably destroyed it.