why do i feel so alone?

today at 11:53p.m. cst i realized i like being alone so i can read and just forget. but then u get to thinking about people u know and how their doing.and realized i am truely alone.

I have absolutely the messiest room out of all my “so called” friends.

I can’t get a grip on wieght probelm… nothing seems to work

i feel disoriented when all i want to do is read and wathc tv. instead of doing something constructive like…tybaeo(spelling) or doing laundry or like i did today try and clean up my life’s messy room.

and i realized i can’t live like this… not anymore. its either find help or give up to suicide. not like thats a real option but i have thought about it enough that i could have a plan of action that way.

I don’t know why i am feelin like this is it because im getting senior year jitters…? or because i lost the best funny man of my life ? or because i realize not even my friends want to know me. since schools let out i have remained in contact with 2 of my friends from school. ONly Two… now how odd is that when i have at least 10 friends i could name that i have at school?

HElp me please before i go on Vaccation i dont think i can stand this anymore.

greenAEcricket

Suicide is never a good way out. There is always an answer out there somewhere. I know what you mean about the not keeping up with friends thing. If it wasn’t for AOL I probably wouldn’t be able to talk to hardly any friends outside of school. I have only been able to keep up with 2 of em this summer. I hope things get better for ya. =)

Sweetie we all have our bad days, or months, and even years but if ive learned anything from it all its that since ive been through some tough times, i appreciate the “little things” and i realize the days that i think are so wonderful that i can almost cry, well i probably wouldnt appreciate those half as much if i didnt go through the rough days. PS your young and have your whole life ahead of u

ACTress WomN

July 22, 2001

Hey! Girl, don’t do anything drastic like suicide! I know you’ll be able to get through all of this. I’ve had my tough times too, VERY tough. I’m glad I had went through those times cuz I have learned from my mistakes. But, don’t worry, u probably don’t have the messiest room! I have a VERY messy room right now too! 🙂 But, hopefully I’ll get it picked up soon. It’s too hot now, though. 🙂

sure you can use my poem, and thanks for the compliment…can you just site it or tell that it’s not your original work, only if that’s ok with you, you don’t have to if you don’t want to though. N-e-wayz, thank you again

Okay, well, I’m talking to you on AIM right now, so you are getting my reactions first handed, but if it makes you feel any better, you can barely see the carpet in my room cuz it’s so cluttered. ANd I’ve seen 3 of my friends from school this summer since the party we had. Only 3…..so it could be worse, hun. I’m here for ya, but suicide…NOT an option, Kim. Love ya! ~*~Laura~*~

I hope I’m of those two friends. College and work are pulling me away, but I still love you! You know so much about me, and I don’t even have to tell you! You listen to me talk about my soap opera life and always offer valuable insight. I feel like I could tell you anything…and you listen. I need friends like you, because you don’t pass judgement. Love ya, Shelbs