Sedation

(This is the most recent piece in a project that begins here.)

I almost begin to translate
But I’d rather watch
In these days when I’m so tired
There are things I no longer am able to share
The language has fallen into disuse
Or it has evolved so far from its origin, it is unrecognisable
I don’t know what I’m seeing at times
The time to ask others may have passed
I’m running out of things to be, to have, to create
All I have is this exhaustion
I sleep so much that I can’t get anything done
I want it to be finished
I’m very close to deciding it’s finished
That is to say that I’m close to deciding that I no longer can translate it
You have the luxury of determining its worth
What it means
Those are discussions in which I may no longer participate
I have been sedated by life