09/07/2011

Have you ever been around someone who’s achieved so much, has so many great ideas, is so smart and accomplished,… that you just feel like utter shit being around them?

That’s kind of like how I am with this hot room mate of mine. She’s 25, super beautiful (WHY ARE THEY ALWAYS DARK HAIRED BEAUTIES????), has her degree, is an officer in the military, and just has a plan for the better portion of the first half of her life.

And here I am, just kind of drifting. It makes me feel like crap.

And so I kind of try to avoid her. Which probably makes her think I don’t like her. Oh well.

I hate, hate, hate beautiful women being beautiful. I wish I could turn off whatever it is about being a guy so I could be immune to them. I don’t like being weak to a pretty face, to sparkly eyes. Ugh.

If I find a picture of her, I’ll post it so you can see what I’m talking about. She’s a beautiful, intelligent woman. She has a degree in mathematics!

She said she might start doing some programming sometime soon. Of course I immediately exploded with geek pride and enthusiasm and told her if she ever needed help to just let me know. I really do enjoy programming though. But helping a beautiful woman program? That’s even better.

Okay. Rant over.