This World Sucks, Help Me, Please

I’m not even going to talk about it. I’m just going to paste it for my favorites to see.

*texting*
Nicki: I can’t go back to my job because nancy can’t drive me. Charlie just had sex with me and promised he would be with me in a week. Then after said he didn’t promise anything and left to be with Tessa (his girlfriend). I’m disgusting. An object. I deserve to be a disgusting stripper forever. I’m pathetic. I’m sick. I hate myself. I want to die. That’s all any man has ever used me for. I’m disgusting.

Bruce:
I am going to kill him. That’s not true. You mean the world to me. I love you. I would never hurt you like that.

Nicki: Don’t do anything. He doesn’t exist to you. Swear to me you will leave him alone. I love him. I love him so much. I just hate myself. I’m so stupid.

Bruce: You’re not stupid. He’s just a monster.

Nicki: I love Charlie. He and Tristan are my family. Why do I let this happen to me? I need to sleep. I need to escape for awhile. I’m miserable. I just needed to vent. I’m an idiot. I don’t know why I let this happen to me.

Bruce: Nicki. Let me help you. You’re falling apart and I can’t stand to see it.

Nicki: I can’t be saved. I don’t even care anymore. If I become trash and die that way I don’t care. I don’t care what happens to me.

Bruce: But I CARE. I love you. I can’t stand to see you this way. Let me help you.

Nicki: I can’t. You don’t understand. I hate myself. I feel like I’m not even a person. I can’t even talk to a guy without them mentioning sex. And Charlie only uses me for sex. I’m an object. I’m just going to go back to the club and dance for disgusting men, and be trash. That’s all I’m good for.

Bruce: Nicki, let me strike a deal with you.

Nicki: ?

Bruce: Let me get back to Huntsville. Get my own place. Move in with me. Not as a couple. You can still date whoever. Let me help you get your life back on track.

Bruce: Okay I’m home. Nicki we need to talk. You need to put aside your pride. You are crashing and burning. You need to reach out to someone you trust. I will not allow you to burn out of this world so young. Especially when you are so loved and have such potential

Nicki Cook: I cant live with someone i need to be alone. but i cant make money unless im actually working. I cant strip without a car. Im screwed.
~broken~

virtuekid: Fine. Live alone. Let me pay the rent.

virtuekid: Let me help you get that car.

Nicki Cook: I dont know what to do anymore.
~broken~

virtuekid: Well I do, and you said you trusted me with your life.

virtuekid: Let me help you, dammit.

virtuekid: First we get you a car.

virtuekid: Let me get a few paychecks, then we’ll just buy a car straight off.

virtuekid: That’s the first step. We get the car.

virtuekid: After we get the car, you find a job that you can get a lot of hours out of. Maybe a night shift at Walmart or something.

Nicki Cook: Bruce i cant let you do that
~broken~

virtuekid: Put aside your damn pride. I don’t care how you feel about it. This is getting out of control. I am going to help you one way or another

virtuekid: If I have to surprise you with the car, I will. The only form of control you’re going to have is if you work with me. Work against me and…

virtuekid: You’re just going to find a car with a bowtie on it outside your house with a key in your name. And just to get revenge, it’ll be an expensive car

virtuekid: I’m tired of this world taking a shit on Nicki. From this day forth, Nicki is going to shit on the world.

Nicki Cook: I cant let you do that. besides. If i ever have a chance to be with charlie im going to take it. Even if i spend the rest of my life as nothing
~broken~

Nicki Cook: So that being said, you have no reason to help me.
~broken~

virtuekid: I don’t care if you get back with Charlie, provided that he treats you right.

virtuekid: You need to remember how you feel right now, knowing that he used you, the next time he tries that shit. You need to put him in his place.

Nicki Cook: I dont know what is wrong with me
~broken~

virtuekid: You’re in love. Trust me, I know the signs. Nicki, you and I are never going to be together. This is not about ‘us’. This is about getting you out of this shitty situation.

Nicki Cook: My friends tell me im a glutton for punishment
~broken~

virtuekid: You may find this hard to believe, but just because I can’t have sex with you doesn’t mean I don’t want to help you.

virtuekid: “Charlie” is ancient greek for “Monster who hurts Nicki”

virtuekid: So yes, you are.

Nicki Cook: I cant let you do that knowing that i could potentially hurt you by going back to charlie. I care about you, i cant do that
~broken~

virtuekid: I told you. This isn’t an option. I’m helping you.

Nicki Cook: Did you not just see what i said? I cant let you help me knowing i could hurt you
~broken~

virtuekid: You can’t take away my free will. I’m helping you regardless.

Nicki Cook: ……
~broken~

virtuekid: Look Nicki, I don’t want to do this, but I have always been honest with you. Charlie may never want to be with you again. Or he may just continue

virtuekid: to leave you for other women when it suits him.

virtuekid: I’m sorry, but it’s a possibility. You deserve better than that. So even though you want to be with him, you need to lay down the law with him. He

virtuekid: Can’t be allowed to get away with such crimes.

Nicki Cook: I know that. But i cant be with anyone else. Ive tried. Im always miserable. Im afraid im going to be this way forever
~broken~

virtuekid: Do not have sex with him again until AFTER he has dumped Tessa. And have that confirmed. Punish him.

virtuekid: He will tell you the sweetest lies and be the nicest person ever to get you. Do not fall for them.

virtuekid: The rules must not change. Dump Tessa first. Prove that he dumped her.

Nicki Cook: I purposely left marks on him. I hope she sees them. Its all i have.
~broken~

virtuekid: And tell him, that was Strike 2. Inform him (even if you have to lie) that if he ever does it again, he will lose you FOREVER. And be serious.

virtuekid: I would give anything to be Charlie Whitt, I really would. He takes the life I’ve always wanted and throws it down the drain. What a fool.

virtuekid: I think it’s because he knows he can control you. He can have you anytime he wants.

Nicki Cook: Even his mom and sister of all people are on my side in this. His mom who trashes me, his sister that tried to strangle me. And theyre taking my side.
~broken~

virtuekid: Nicki.. Plain and simple, he’s a monster.

virtuekid: In all honesty, I believe with time you will get over him. Once he has hurt you enough.

virtuekid: But you haven’t been hurt enough yet.

virtuekid: I just worry about the message Tristan is going to learn from Charlie’s poor example

virtuekid: It’s okay to abandon the mother of your child

virtuekid: And I cannot make that promise not to harm him, Nicki. There is no doubt, if we meet, it will be bad.

virtuekid: In 10 years, we will look back on this, and see that it does get better. That it does pass.

virtuekid: Talk to me, Nicki. Say something.

virtuekid: So I know you’re listening

virtuekid: He’s going to walk all over you for as long as you let him. Lay down the law next time he wants sex. He has to dump Tessa and prove it first.

virtuekid: And inform him it is Strike 2. The next strike he will lose you forever. And even lie, say he’ll lose you to some guy. It will drive him insane.

virtuekid: You need to say something to me, or I’m just going to blow up your phone.

virtuekid: I’m fucking serious.

Nicki Cook: If you ever hurt him i will never ever speak to you again. I will leave your life permanently. I love him and i do not want him hurt.
~broken~

virtuekid: I accept that. I’ll just make it worth it.

Nicki Cook: Bruce DO NOT EVER HURT HIM OR I WILL FUCKING HATE YOU FOREVER AND NEVER FORGIVE YOU
~broken~

virtuekid: Then keep him away from me. Because I will fold him like paper.

Nicki Cook: Bruce im being serious. If you ever lay a finger on him i will hate you. if you care about me at all you will leave him alone.
~broken~

virtuekid: No.I will not be pushed around.If he comes around me, he’ll get hurt.Even if I have to sever everything I have with you to do it.So keep him away

Nicki Cook: Bruce if you cant respect that then YOU are the monster. Im suffering enough. Seeing him hurt or worse would destroy me.
~broken~

Nicki Cook: You stay the fuck away from him or i will show these messages to the cops.
~broken~

virtuekid: Nicki. I know what’s best for you. Charlie is a poison in your heart. I will not allow him to destroy you.

Nicki Cook: I know youre just trying to be helpful or whatever but i will not let you threaten the man i love, no matter what.
~broken~

virtuekid: I understand. Nothing you can say will insult me right now. You’re super emotional and just a fool in love. It’s all too familiar.

Nicki Cook: If you make me live without him you will be doing more harm then good. Plus my child needs his father.
~broken~

Nicki Cook: Quit thinking about you and your anger.
~broken~

virtuekid: Your child needs his father to MAN THE FUCK UP. That’s for sure. Put him in his place or Tristan is going to get screwed up by Charlie.

virtuekid: He needs to “Walk The Line” johnny cash style.

virtuekid: What he’s doing is dishonorable.

Nicki Cook: Im going to show these messages to the police. I have them locked. Youre threatening my childs father.
~broken~

virtuekid: Fine, Nicki. Report me. I’m just trying to help you. I only said if I run into Charlie there’d be serious problems.

Nicki Cook: So what? Its not your place to go around hurting people whenever youre angry. Stay the fuck away from him
~broken~

virtuekid: You don’t trust me with your life. You don’t trust me at all.

Nicki Cook: Yeah. Threatening him. I dont appreciate it. i dont care what he has done you have no right to threaten him or hurt him
~broken~

virtuekid: Let’s stick to the topic that matters, okay? Next time Charlie wants sex, demand that he dumps Tessa, and that he prove it

virtuekid: Okay?

virtuekid: And don’t threaten me.

virtuekid: You do not want to provoke me tonight

Nicki Cook: I dont trust you because you threaten people when youre angry when you have no right to
~broken~

Nicki Cook: Let me put it this way. if you hurt the father of my child there will be serious repercussions.
~broken~

virtuekid: I already know that.

Nicki Cook: Do not talk to me anymore.
~broken~

virtuekid: That’s it, I’m emailing Tessa this whole conversation

Nicki Cook: Bruce, if you cant respect that and take back your threat, if you are that selfish, then get the hell out of my life and stop talking to me
~broken~

Nicki Cook: Bruce stop it.
~broken~

Nicki Cook: Bruce dont do that. How could you? Why would you ruin my chance of getting my family back?
~broken~

Nicki Cook: Why would you hurt me that badly? You dont lov3 ‘3
~broken~

virtuekid: I can’t believe you would think I don’t love you.

Nicki Cook: Dont you dare. You would be hurting me terribll stop please dont tddo this to em
~broken~

virtuekid: Nicki. Get some sleep. You’re obviously tired and stressed the hell out.

Nicki Cook: How could yoi? Leave her out of oit font send her anything pleaswe
~broken~

Nicki Cook: Call me nwo
~broken~

Nicki Cook: Calol me
~broken~

virtuekid: Listen to me now, Nicki. Next time Charlie wants sex, demand that he break it off with Tessa and that he prove he did.

Nicki Cook: Call me
~broken~

virtuekid: Otherwise, he’s just going to do it again. Do you understand?

Nicki Cook: Call me
~broken~

virtuekid: I’m not calling you.

Nicki Cook: Call me
~broken~

virtuekid: Right well. I can’t help you like this. Nicki you need to sleep. Let’s talk about this tomorrow or something.

Nicki Cook: Please dont send her anything, please leave him alone, how could you do this to me? Please stop this, please dont do this to me
~broken~

Nicki Cook: How could you say toiu love me when you woujld do something this horriblew to em
~broken~

virtuekid: Nicki, I love you more than you will ever know. I’m not going to hurt you.

Nicki Cook: You emailedc her she will tell charlie and hee will hate me how could you do this to me how could you hurt me this much you horrible
~broken~

Nicki Cook: How could you do this to me?
~broken~

virtuekid: I didn’t email it.

virtuekid: If I called you, would you be civilized? I don’t want to argue.

Nicki Cook: Pleasw calle me
~broken~

Nicki Cook: Plese call me
~broken~

virtuekid: It wont let me. Call restriction -34, whatever that means

Nicki Cook: Please dont do this to me.
~broken~

virtuekid: Nicki, let me call you, just hold on a minute.

Nicki Cook: I cant handle this, youre going to ruin everything, please how could you send that to her and make him hate me? How could you destroy me like this
~broken~

Nicki Cook: How could you do this to me?
~broken~

Nicki Cook: I am destroyed
~broken~

Nicki Cook: I am destroyed
~broken~

virtuekid: wtf. Answer the damn phone!

virtuekid: I just called twice.

virtuekid: I just struggled to get this phone working so you can send me to voicemail? Now I’m pissed.

Nicki Cook: I tried calling you over and over. You hate me how could you hurt me please stod dont hurt ne like this
~broken~

virtuekid: THEN I AM GOING TO CALL YOU. ANSWER THE PHONE

virtuekid: I got your voicemail twice. TWICE.

Nicki Cook: Pleasde dont do this to me
~broken~

Nicki Cook: I was trying to call youn how could touh to htis to me
~broken~

Nicki Cook: I was trying to call youn how could touh to htis tome
~broken~

*phone call, this part I will try to paraphrase, as I don’t have a recording of it*

Nicki is sobbing.

Bruce: Nicki, look, I’m sorry, I’m not going to email Tessa, but dammit, woman. You can’t let Charlie walk all over you. You have to lay down the law! Listen!

Nicki is sobbing, terribly.

Bruce: The next time he wants ANYTHING from you. I don’t care what it is – a hug, a kiss, sex, whatever, you DEMAND that he break up with Tessa and prove that he broke up. Then you inform him that if he EVER, EVER does this shit to you again, he will lose you forever. And I don’t care if you have to lie through your teeth when you say that. I don’t care if you’d rather low-crawl through miles of shit before dumping him, you make him BELIEVE that he’ll lose you. And maybe, just maybe, the fucktard will SEE that he’s ruining his family.

Nicki tries to say something, I have no idea what, she’s crying too hard.

Bruce: What?

Nicki: Don’t… hurt… him… I… love… him… *crying*

Bruce: Nicki, God dammit! Did you not READ WHAT YOU JUST SENT ME? HE PROMISED TO LEAVE HER. HE FUCKED YOU. THEN HE LIED TO YOU. HE FUCKING LIED TO YOU. HE’S BALLS DEEP INSIDE OF HIS GIRLFRIEND RIGHT FUCKING NOW!

Nicki breaks into a heavy sob.

Bruce: ………. I can’t take this. This is so painful to me. I’m sorry, Nicki. I am. I really am. I’d do anything to take this pain away from you. But you need to see the truth. He’s a monster. He fucking lied to you to have sex with you. He’s using you. He’s a fucking monster. That’s why I don’t like him. That’s why I want to kill him.

Nicki: Please… don’t… hurt… him… *crying*

Bruce: God dammit. Fine. I promise I wont hurt him. (Total lie, I will still kill him on sight) BUT YOU NEED TO LISTEN TO ME. He’s walking all over you! He’s going to keep doing it too, over and over, until you stand up for yourself! He’s going to keep fucking you, and then whoever else he wants!

Nicki: Please… don’t… remind… me *loud burst of sobbing*

Bruce: God dammit.

Nicki: I… need… to… go… to… bed…

Bruce: I agree. Look, I’m sorry if I ruined your day. I just hate to see you this way. And I hate that he’s doing this to you. You need to stand up to him. I love you. Goodnight.

*I can clearly hear her burst into loud sob as she hangs up*

*off the phone*

*texting*
virtuekid: Goodnight, Nicki. I’m sorry I ruined everything. I just want you to get past this. You can’t let Charlie walk all over you. Get some sleep, Nicki

Am I monster for using the email as a threat to get her to talk to me? Or did I just make things worse?

I wish I could kill him. Her love for him is the only protection he has. I can’t believe he did that to her. Lied to her, fucked her, right afterwards denied the promise. I’ll kill him.

I just… don’t see the point in living in a world like this.

I wish my beautiful Nicki was hideous on the outside. I wish she looked like a monster on the outside. I wish no man had any interest in her whatsoever.