Big Entry

Hi everyone.

I haven’t written in so long. Or at least it feels like it’s been forever.

So much has happened. I don’t even know where to begin. But I’ll try.

I wish I could write my entries the way Helen does… covering every day, covering little details.

I don’t really do a lot of stuff though… so my entries would be a bit bland. But whatever.

Well. Awhile back, I mentioned in my entries that I had done an interview with a company.

I did well in the interview, and they wanted to meet me in person, and give me a programming test while I was there. I agreed to meet them on the specified date.

They were located in East Hartford, Connecticut, so I had a 17 hour drive 2 days before the interview, and stayed in a local motel while I was up there.

It was snowing there. And it was so cold! I forgot about snow. I forgot how cold it could be. I think the last time I had seen snow of that magnitude was when I lived in Germany in 2005.

Turns out I still really don’t like the cold. I’ve been in -20F degree weather, and 146F degree weather, and I still say that I’ll take the heat any day over the cold.

East Hartford is a beautiful, beautiful city.

I met them the day of the interview, and I did well on the interview. Then I was given the programming test.

When I finished the programming test, the operations manager said “That was faster than any other candidate has ever done.” and I was really happy about that. Then they ran my program, frowned, and said “however, it runs slower than any other candidates program has ever run.”

So, at the end of the day, I went back to my motel, slept, and then hit the road back to Alabama.

2 weeks later I got their rejection letter. And I knew it was coming, so it didn’t really hurt my feelings too much.

However, I’ve also been applying to other jobs, and I have a very promising job opportunity in Orlando, Florida… my precious home, and it’s a Game company!

I’ve taken 2 of their tests so far, and have aced them both. I honestly think the only thing left for me is to visit them in person and be offered the job. At least that’s what I hope.

My life is starting to come together I think. I feel bad that everything is going my way while the rest of the world has been going to hell lately. What with the Libya crap, Japan crap, and NZ crap. The world seems to be falling apart just so I can have things my way for awhile.

And April is pregnant now. So I’m going to be an Uncle again. I’m really excited about that, but at the same time, I worry a lot about her diabetes situation. Diabetes and pregnancy are 2 things that never go together very well. She’s considered a high risk pregnancy, and if she doesn’t manage her sugar properly (which she’s never done before) she can really mess up her baby. So we’re all… declaring Marshall Law on her. She will have a healthy baby whether she likes it or not. And she will survive the pregnancy, whether she likes it or not.

I just find myself really worrying about it all. I think I’m too young to be losing my little sister. I’m 27, she’s 25. That’s too young for that crap.

I reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally hope I get that Orlando job. It would be great to be back in Florida. It would be great to be able to start building a life. I wont even know what to work on next after I get a job. I really wont.

Emotionally I guess I’m doing okay. I still think about Nicki a lot.. but I don’t let it get me down as much as it use to. I still find myself wishing things had turned out differently between us, but what’s happened happened, and it’s over. To quote George W. Bush… “I think we agree – the past is over”. Honestly, right now I just feel like throwing in the towel when it comes to relationships. I’m not exactly relationship material. I’m a very very verrrry predictable stable person. To put it bluntly, I’m boring. And I have no plans on changing that. I like being boring. But chicks don’t dig boring. And I’m not exactly handsome either. I think the best way to phrase all of this is “I am a nice guy and a nerd”. So, I’m just going to put relationships on the backburner, in the basement. I don’t really care, and I’m not going to put any effort into it. Now if a chick suddenly comes up to me and asks me out, cool. But if not, no big deal. I don’t need anyone. I’ve been a loner for the past 8 years. I can handle it. I can survive.

But yea, emotionally I’m alright. I still have my mood swings though, and I get depressed. But I deal with it. It’s all I can do.

I picked up working out again. And it still sucks. I hate it. But whatever. I think I’m going to set a goal of 190 – 200 pounds. If I can get to that weight, I’ll be a beast. But right now at 170, my abs are flabs, and my arms are just sad. So I’ve got a lot of work ahead of me. And what’s worse – I have no equipment here at my parents. But I’ll make do.

My Dad is going to go up to his Dad’s (My Grandfather) grave this weekend and put flowers on them. Apparently Saturday is his birthday. I hate that I have to learn about my grandparents through other people. Apparently my grandfather on my Dad’s side was a smoker. I never knew that. Found that out from an offhand comment from Dad. Apparently my Dad’s mom was 17 when she got married and had Dad (My Dad is the oldest in a family of 3). That’s so young. I remember when I found out that my grandpa was really good at instruments. I saw his collection of guitars. He had so many. And not just 6 string ones either, he had 12 string ones, and dual guitars too. And he didn’t even know how to read music. He just played by ear. I know that I apparently got my balding head from my Mom’s Dad. He was bald. He also loved Chess, apparently. She told me that he would keep a chess board near his chair, and he would look at someone, then look at the board, then look at the person, then back to the board, over and over, trying to lure them into starting a game with him. I think that’s hilarious. That’s probably where I get my love of strategy games. Because Chess is fun. And I would love to have played a game against him. But whatever. They all died long before I was ever around.

Okay. I think I’ve said enough for this entry.

~Bruce