RIP Bruce

Bruce
You removed me from your friend list after a grand total of 1 day? What the hell?

Nicki
Sorry it made me get into a fight with charlie and….ugh

Bruce
Well I never meant to start any fights. But at the same time that really hurt my feelings. Just tossing me aside like always. Don’t friend request me again if you’re just going to toss me like trash. I don’t like or appreciate that. I’m sorry to be rude and blunt about it, but seriously – not cool.

Nicki
I know, i wasnt trying to hurt you, but charlie got super pissed and threatened to start talking to his ex wife again, and that scared me so…. 🙁

Bruce
So OUT I GO, like always. Yea. I get it Nicki. Believe me, I get it. Get ready for a super long super ugly message.

Bruce
I am seriously pissed off. This letter likely will not be a pleasant one. Keep that in mind as you read.

You have seriously burnt your last and final bridge with me. No matter what you say, your actions will always be louder than your words. And I just don’t think you care at all. I’m a good person, Nicki, I don’t deserve this shit from you. YOU’RE HURTING MY HEART. Don’t talk to me anymore. We use to be friends. Before Binkley. Before Charlie. I was always loyal to you! I only had eyes for you! Believe me, if I could rip my heart out and destroy it I would. But I can’t. I’m sorry that my love for you ruined what we had. I’m sorry I ever cared. I’m sorry for the feelings I can’t control. I only wanted you to be happy – with me. Sorry for dreaming. Believe me, it will never happen again!

I understand you’re trying to protect your family… but you go about it so coldly. Y’know if you just took 5 minutes out of your time to explain to me that you had to remove me from your friend list, I would have understood. But you just fucking toss me out, and have me scratching my head trying to figure out what just happened. Like a piece of fucking trash.

Just like the 5 minutes out of your time you could have took the first time you told me to leave me alone.

Or the 5 minutes out of your time you could have took to tell me you had started seeing somebody all those years ago.

But I see now that I’m not worth 5 minutes of your time. I never was. I never will be.

I am so sick of crying over you. I am sick of all this pain!

Sick. Of. It.

Tell Charlie he doesn’t have to worry about me anymore. I fucking get it, now. I fucking understand.

So if you really do care about me, even in the least bit, there is one thing you can do, one fucking thing, that can redeem you.

Leave me the hell alone. Forever. Don’t reply, don’t come back in a few months. Don’t come back in 2 years. Just leave and never come back. Let me get the fuck over you. Give me that chance. I deserve that much.

I really am sorry that my feelings ruined what we had. I’m even more sorry that they were never mutual. Fuck this world.

And as odd as this sounds, I close with…

Love, forever and always,

~Bruce

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February 8, 2011

Wow. I can’t believe she did that. That’s quite a powerful letter, Bruce. Good for you. Seriously.

February 8, 2011

She sounds so immature. And so does her marriage. Sorry.