Mistake (Also has music)
Well.
I didn’t talk to Nicki last night. But I did make a mistake.
I unblocked her from Facebook while I was debating talking to her, but as if opening Pandora’s box, I almost immediately (within 5 minutes) felt like I’d made a huge mistake and so I went to block her again.
Facebook wont let me block her for 48 hours after unblocking her.
So now… I have 2 days of just holding my breath, praying she doesn’t see me on Facebook. So I’m not going to post or anything for the next 2 days. I’m going to lay low.
In order to prevent myself from talking to Nicki, I surfed Omegle. That’s really what saved me. Just random chatting with random strangers (Not the video chat, mind you, just text).
There are a lot of freaks out there.
Although I did run into this one nice lady whom I chatted with for about an hour.
Either way, Omegle distracted me from talking to Nicki. Thank you, Omegle.
Now let’s hope that she doesn’t see me on Facebook and send me a message.
It would mean disaster for my heart. I’m trying so hard to get over her.
I hear… a voice say “Don’t be so blind”…
it’s telling me all these things…
that you would probably hide…
am I… your one and only desire…
am I the reason you breathe…
or am I the reason you cry…
Always… always… always… always… always… always… always…
I just can’t live without you…
I love you…
I hate you…
I can’t get around you…
I breathe you…
I taste you…
I can’t live without you…
I just can’t take any more…
this life of solitude…
I guess that i’m out the door…
and now i’m done with you…
I feel… like you don’t want me around…
I guess i’ll pack all my things…
I guess i’ll see you around…
Its all… been bottled up until now…
as I walk out your door…
all I hear is the sound…
Always… always… always… always… always… always… always…
I just can’t live without you…
I love you…
I hate you…
I can’t get around you…
I breathe you…
I taste you…
I can’t live without you…
I just can’t take any more…
this life of solitude…
I guess that i’m out the door…
and now i’m done with you…
I love you…
I hate you…
I can’t live without you…
I left my head around your heart…
Why would you tear my world apart…
Always… always… always… always…
I see… the blood all over your hands…
does it make you feel… more like a man…
was it all… just a part of your plan…
the pistol’s shakin’ in my hands…
and all I hear is the sound…
I love you…
I hate you…
I can’t live without you…
I breathe you…
I taste you…
I can’t live without you…
I just can’t take any more…
this life of solitude…
I guess that i’m out the door…
and now i’m done with you…
I love you…
I hate you…
I can’t live without you…
I love you…
I hate you…
I can’t live without you…
I just can’t take any more…
this life of solitude…
I pick myself off the floor…
and now i’m done with you…
Always…
Always…
Always…
ryn: That Incredible Hulk ride sounds HORRIBLE! Lol. I could never compare any of my life experiences to what my kids have gone through… but sometimes, their stories do resonate. This entry of yours reminds me of one of my boys – although he has a lot less self control than you do! Were you able to re-block her again?
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