Evacuating Soul

August 8, 2003

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A warning forgotten…

Were you warning me that day,

That I would fall in to love?

[And leaving out the fact, that you cannot fall out]

So you have left me in this pit,

isn’t that the case?

Every key you stole, you locked.

Only leaving one small door open at the top.

Was this small amount of light supposed to

Give me hope?

Why so high up?

Why did you put it so high up?

To remind me of everything…

Just another thing out of reach.

My mind makes clear the outline,

But my image of you is fading.

I am climbing to the top,

Every rock leaves my heart aching.

Every day in the dungeon has ruined

Me the more.

My body is rotting, and my eyes are oozing.

They’re leaking out our secrets.

[All the one we should not have made.]

They are forcing out our good times,

The few times.

And covering my face with lies.

Covered in the reality you have tried to hide.

[It’s so dark in here]

Been so long since you have seen me,

And this grotesque mask has begun to dry.

The lines have begun to crack.

Split.

Me open,

As the layers peel

Stripping away the past.

Reveal

Something deformed, mutilated,

And unloved.

I reach for the last rock, and pull myself to the top.

I hear you whisper

‘I love you, I’ve been waiting’

But you cannot see how cold and hard I have grown,

Too dark to see what was once my face,

You’ll grab my hand and know how I have changed.

So I beg you to please close your eyes,

And let me go.

I’ve heard your words,

I have made it to the top.

This door has swung wide open,

So I am asking…

Am I allowed to jump now?

nice.thanx for the note. it took me a while to get back to u though cuz my comp wasnt working. so yeah. ttyl.

that was very well written. i like… jenni

How many breaks until a heart spews out real love…?

VampireOfSociety

May 12, 2003

Beautiful

ohh that was amazing holly. ive felt that same feeling before. Its kinda like a memory. Thank you so much for your note. It made me smile to know all you guys care about me and want to help me. And just to clear things up, i was only feeling like that for a little while. None of that is like, a permanant feeling. I was just feeling a little blue.. so thanks again. i love you!

and my face will be covered. Covered with the reality that you have tried to hide. It’s so dark in here But after time it always drys. and the lines begin to crack. This layer is peeling. Its stripping away the past. Revealing something ugly and deformed…. AWESOME

a quote i know my inspire you to write a poem about it its goes like this: “dont tell me you love me, i may do a crazy thing and believe you.” ryn: thanks for your note too your diary rox!

That was very deep. It was awesome. I love your diary! -Trish

hm that was good, i liked it, your obvisouly very talented, keep writing. thanks for the note luvs

you know your diary layout is very impressive, like in a week or so im planing on re-decorating my diary again, do you mind if you help me, just by going into my diary, leaving your layout code, and just write “TEXT HERE” where im suppose to type my writing into, and be gone??? i’ll give you credit for it! please???