over

 Christmas is over, finals are over, and the house is once again a crazy mess from the lack of will to do anything to keep up with the crazy and the toys. It just is. I clean, and I clean, and then I have a toddler who dumps out everything, and viola, it is a mess once more. 

I feel lately like I am giving and giving and giving, deplearting all my resources and I am getting nothing in return. Nothing.

I am proud I got a 3.825 gpa this semester. That was great, and I have been cleared to graduate I beleive in may. 

I am trying hard to not come on here and simply complain, things are not bad, but I am feeling empty and depleated… I am wanting to see friends again soon… I am wanting to talk to someone and have what I say matter… I want to feel like a woman again and not just a mom or caretaker… It is so draining on me lately. 

I am enjoying my break though, I am enjoying my babies,I am enjoying my sleeping in, I am enjoying not being so busy all the time.

I am happy od is back up and running again. I missed it.