One week done!

The first week of school is now behind me, and I feel as thoguh I will thrive this semester. All of my classes seem to be great, and I am enjoying learning!

I am in Eastern Christianity & ISlam. Early American Art, Gender Psych & history and systems.  WIth this I need only a few more classes to be done!!! I am finally a full senior, and I couldn’t be happier.

I do feel old, I know I am not, but apparenly, I don’t have the dress code or lingo down. Sigh…. I suppose all I can be is myself. 

I got approved today to do a small research based paper, that hopefully will be insightful for me and theraputic. I will be needing volunteers for this, and so look for this in the coming weeks. 

The first day away from Sirris was physically rough. I felt so sick by the end of the day, now I am doing better. I am pumping better, and thus feeling better. Being away from a baby and pumping is not natural, but I have come to terms with this is God’s design for us. as mamals we are supposed to feed our young our milk. Thus despite any troubles there will always be a way for this relationship to work. I have faith, and I will try to not stress. 

Travis has been home a week now, things are still off, things are still not going well, but he wasapproved for battle creek and will be going soon I hope, no firm dates as of yet but things have been given the green flag, so I am anxously hopeful. He has been recommneded to go for 3 months. It is a long time, and it is a drive for us to go there, so…. 

I am feeling more alive again since I am back in classes! It feels good to be there, it feels right. I finally feel like I can breathe in the air and not feel like crying. This has been such a challanging month, one that when I look back upon I don;t think I will quiet remmeber it as such. I will go more into this later, when I have given my heart some time to settle back into my chest, and feel like it belongs there again. 

With that I will leave you with the praise that my baby brother is being considered for a full ride scholarship to go to Cambridge in England to go to grad school. I don’t know if he will get it but you have to be approached, and not apply yourself. It could be amazing. Part of me wishes my dreams could take me so far, but my dreams are here, and they call me mommy. That my friends is something I can not imagine giving up. 

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