committed
This is a harder entry to write, because I do not know how to write it or what exactly to say.
So, I will just say it.
Travis was commited to the psyciatric ward of the VA in Marion. He went voluntarily, but just barely.
It has been coming for a long time. He has issues, way more than ptsd, or what I have ever let onto on here or too most people actually. I know he is basically dsm soup.
Today he was aggitated, and irritable, and was going on and on about how he couldn’t deal with the kids, or me and just couldn’t do it anymore. He was seathng with anger, and the hostility was too much.
By the grace of god there was an opening today at the va, (if anyone has dealt with them they know this miricle) then they had one bed open. Travis was aggitated, and angry, and it was in the professional opnion he go. It was in my opnion he go. It was he go or I couldn’t take him home. i couldn’t go on.
He agreed. Loosely, but he agreed.
I am grateful? I am numb? I don’t even know how to feel, or if I am tired, or if I am sad. I just don’t know.
I am dreading him coming home. I am dreading the whats next.
I am happy to have him go, and I am happy for the time off. I am happy this means hope, but am terrified if it doesn’t.
I am not supposed to tell anyone, no one is to know.
The va has some dreadful policy problems, that made this harder.
I wish I could do more, and am happy I do not have to.
I am going to sleep tonight, enjoy the big bed to myself, and worry about tomorrow tomorrow.
I’m sorry, sweetie. *hugs*
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I’m sorry.
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*HUGS*…and praying for today and this night with you and your family. Tomorrow will have enough to pray over all of its own, and we’ll pick up where we left off and pray again. Wish I could give you a *squeeze*, and let your husband know that he’s got people praying for him.
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*random noter, saw you on the front page* I’m really sorry for you. Big hugs. Hopefully, this will be better for you, him, and the kids in the end.
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Some of the hardest things to do are the right things to do. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other.
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If you need someone to talk to, I’m always here. I hope this means hope is there… I hope things can get better.
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Just keep your head up. Focus on your beautiful babies and enjoy ‘the break’… It’s good he went freely even if just barely. There is a reason for everything.
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*hugs*
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Continuing to say prayers for you and your family. 🙁 If there is anything else that we (as a community, as your friends and readers) can do, just say the word… So many people care about you and your family.
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I’m so sorry!
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XOXO Praying for you!
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I’m so sorry. I hope this is the turning point and that he’s able to get the help he needs. xo
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*hugs* I hope that he gets the help that he needs…that all of you need. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.
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I am glad to hear that Travis is getting the help he needs! Thinking of you!
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I hope everything works out and he gets the help he has ever so needed.I hope the VA can help him out.And for you, i hope that you also get the help you need!! hugs!!
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Found you at random been lurking although stalking seems to fit better for a little while. I just wanted to reach out. My mom has a lot of these issues. Its really hard to get them to go. Glad he did. Hope it gets better. I know its hard.
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I just read this and wanted to say I am so sorry but I hope it works out for the best! Love,
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