Samara in the summer

Samara talks now, and I love it. When you have a child who spent 4 years in speech and wasn’t talking at two, and is diagnosied with autism at an early age you begin to take these things as monumentious. I am so thankful she can communicate her needs, and tell stories, and talk. 

With the talking comes out some things that are funny, and sometimes heartbreaking. 

she has been dead set on getting a dog for a while, not just any dog mind you a speically trained autism dog. She told me the other day that we needed a dog to protect us from rouge cats, becuase cats are mean. It made me laugh.

We were discussing we can fly to paris on a military flight space a, for cheap actually, she said if I go to paris that I will fall in love and get married and have more babies. This was followed up with something like ,"oh great, I’m going to be a big sister again."

She told Travis he is just like a kid, and needs to get better so he is an adult again.

She asked me if she could adopt a baby, I said sure, and asked why? Because being pregnant freaks her out. A few days later she said she didn’t want to have her stomach all cut up like mine because it would hurt… Sadness, this one weighs heavy on me because I realize what I say and how I act does influence her and not always in a positive way. 

She is doing so well in aba, I mean awesome, there is not enough praise for how well this stuff works guys and gals. It is a miracle even if it turns out to be short lived. 

She is growing, still not sure about school next year or what grade level. She did fabulous on her nwea testing, but isn’t even near grade level on her reading or writting, nor is she making satisfactory progress towards it. Basically if they gave out grades she would have f’s in reading and writting and c’s in math, so she failed kindergarten. That weighs heavy on me as well, I have tried to help so much, but she has to want to do it. She ultimatley has to do this on her own… You know. The truth is for as smart as she is she still struggles. Still has needs.

They also indicated she does not put forth effort, nor does she interact with peers effectively, nor does she work well in groups.

She is making friends, at the center she has the biggest six year old crush on an 8 year old boy named tyler. 

Then she has a friend from school named Jazmine, I have tried to befrind the mom so they could hang out, but it isn;t going well, I think there is some abuse there, and well, I am conflicted. 

Samara this week has had some testing for food allergies, I hope they are alll negative, but I am not sure they will be, her tummy always hurts, and she spends half the day in the bathroom lately. , pooor lady.

You know, I love my little girl, I love her when she is funnny and sweet, and I love her when she is screaming and thrashing. I love her. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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