name, child, & pressure***

I have so much homework & housework to get done, but i have to write in here. I have been missing this place, but with three kids and finals looming over me, I have been at a loss for time. I also have been trying to keep my house somewhat cleaner. It bothers me. 

What"s in a Name?

 

I have written in here before that his mother hate’s Sirris’ name. She wanted me to name him Richard.

Well she took it a step too far. 

She told us she is giving him money when he is older to go legally change it. She told us she cries at night because he has the worst name in the world, and kids will make fun of him for it. 

Really? Because Richard is better?

I have 2 responses to that. 

1. Kids don’t know any better, they accept things like names at face value. It is only when adults tell them differently that they question it.

2. All kids are made fun of for somethign at sometime. Be it their name, or their apperance, or something they did. If it isn’t his name it will be something else.

I happen to love his name. It suits him, and I am in love with it. It might be one of my favorite names. His name means :brightest star" such a beautiful image, and one I hope he grows into. 

She needs to keep her mouth shut, because if he becomes self concious at all about it it will be her who planted that seed.

I truly feel this ranks up there with trying to annul my marriage. 

It all boils down to her not respecting our choices as adults. She still feels she knows better, even after 10 years of Travis not being under her roof she still feels she is in control and right.

She even brought her dirty dogs over to my house this weekend. Something clearly against my house rules. I have few rules in this house but that is the number one.

Once again it is about respect. We are supposed to respect her, and she we try, but it goes both ways. 

I think next time she calls with plans we will be too busy…

A growing Child

 

Sirris turned one month last week. He is simply awesome. I am still having trouble nursing on one side. It is like nerve damage. I think it is a vasospasm. I want to wean the one side, but then I will be severly lopsided. I wish there was something I could do. I am worried abtou his crying. It is so quiet. He is a quiet cryer even when angry… 

The other is he chokes on his milk like Sabastian did….  Only worse… It is concerning

Samara and Sabastian are doing really well too. Therpay is doing Samara really well, and her behavior is awesome. We have been getting compliments from perfect strangers on how polite and well beahved she is. It confirms all the time we have invested in her is paying off.

 

Pressure

 

My blood pressure is still too high, and not repsonding to any medication. I am being sent to an internal medicine doctor. The ob thinks it is secondary hypertension. which is something that is a result of something else. 

I looked it up and it doesn’t look good. 

Something like my kidneys heart or thyroid could be causing it, and then they need help… She is thinking it has always been there, but the baby has thrown my body off. 

It is good I am done with kids because physically my bdoy can’t do this again. BUt my heart still feels a void. I can’t explain it. Where will this child come from? 

Last week was nice, I got to go to the Vera Bradley sale with a fav and it was pretty awesome. I got the new bag I have been wanting.

This weekend the zoo opens and I am excited!!!

The insurance company finally descided the accident was not my fault! I get the rest of my settlement money now!

And with that Sirris is screaming… 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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