41+

 I am past 41 weeks now, and I am stressed. 

Still no baby or signs of labor. 

Next week I have a very full week full of appointments that took me 5+ weeks to get, and they are appointments I can not send someone else to do. They are on me to get them fufilled. One of them is trying to prove that Travis needs me as a caregiver, (can’t go to that by himself.) the second one is Samara’s psych appointment. I really want to go to that as well, because I am the one who gets her, and understands what is being said. I don’t trust the usual people to relay information to me. 

I am really ready to cry. 

Seriously, I simply want to cry. Why won’t this baby come out? What is the reason for staying in so long? I had my first 3 days early, my second 2 weeks early. This one is now 8 days late. 

I am stressed, discouraged… Something. I wish I knew why, or had a better plan.

I am thinking about calling the doctor this morning, and find out if there is anything else we can do. The must stupid thing about our american maternity care is if I wanted surgery, I could just ask for it and have it, but because I want a vbac my options are limited. I don’t get it… 

I am being selfish aren’t I? Ughhh…. 

So, ABA started yesterday, not the day before because of snow. 

Samara was crazy crazy. She enjoyed being the center of attention, and having gals here that were not giantly pregnant to play with her. She did most of her homework for them, and played and played and played. She crashed by 8 even. 

RIght now it is early, but she seems to like them, but as with anything new they are a novelty. Wait until they demand she do something hard, or she doesn’t like. 

She goes to the center this afternoon, we will see how she likes it. She is supposed to go there 3 days a week, and do in home 2 days a week. It seems like it will go pretty well. I just am worried about gas to get her picked up, but as always it always works out. 

 

I am simply not cheery enough to keep writting… Hope you all are having a better day than I am…  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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