this & that

 Things are betterish here, not perfect, but when have they ever been?

We see the Vet Center lady this week. He doesn’t know it yet, but he will. I am going if nothing else, but I feel with so many of the issues happening I need him to attend. It is right after his ptsd group. So he will be there. 

I got clearance from the doctor to have this baby at any point now. Not that she thinks it is coming. (although there is a giant storm headed our way, so that would mean that I should go into labor right?) It is a good feeling to make it to this point! You know the point of "safety" Not that there is any guarentee on anything when it comes to having a baby.

I have my last u/s next week. Samara is going and I hope to get Travis there as well. We are checking on the size for the doctor and the pallate for me. I could care less about the size of the kid. If I have a 6 pound baby so be it. If I have a  12 pound baby oh well. I foubt the baby will be either size, but my point is I don’t care really. I have faith in my body’s ability to have this child. 

I also have refused to allow them to check me. They found that odd because most women care? I don’t care. Once again this baby will come when he is ready, there is no rushing it, and seeing if I am dialated means nothing. 

I told the school to pull Samara from all early reading programs. I got a strongly worded email stating how wrong I was. Although, yesterday with not going anywhere she had a much clamer day. Imagine that.

School, is still going. I am stressed in a way about it. but all is well. I found yesterdays lecture to be disturbing. About post-mortem pictures of infants. Sitting there this pregnant. Not comforting. 

Sabastian has not been feeling well, he has an ear infection and threw up all over his carseat last night. Not sure what that was about. Today he is still clingier than usual. He has Dt this morning and was almost afraid of the therapist. It is alright I suppose. She is new. 

Random thought of the day, we are watching Sesame street and the girl monsters are playing princess, and the prince comes in to rescue the princess. He is the same prince from every story. Does this mean, there are lots of princesses and only one prince? As in there is only one prince out there, and the rest of guys are not? Or that he is the ultimate jerk, and moves from princess to princess? The girls ultimately solved the problem without the prince!!! Funny note, he rides his pony like the men from a Monty Python skit.

And with that, I am exhausted, 10 am sounds like naptime right?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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