more on school

 I am so frustrated with the school.

After the IEP fiasco they told me she is too smart. Behaves too well, and just doens’t need any help. 

Ahh but my friends her midterms came and she is below grade level in everything. Many autistic kiddos struggle with staying on grade level. She is smart, actually really really smart, but she doesn’t get the basics or why she should have to learn them.

All week she has been non-compliant. No working with the aides, no working doing her reading, nothing. 

So then today in her bag is a note that states that she is to be put in a special reading class every day, because they gave her the dibels and she didn’t pass it. The letter stated she needed to be on level so she could pass the standarized test. 

I don’t get the whole emphasis on the test, the test means nothing. The test is the biggest joke in the child devolpment filed and yet we all bow to the all mighty test. The test tells you nothing. Nothing at all in my mind. 

I am thinking I am going to reply to the school, she may not be put in the literacy program, and that we do not feel it is nessicary. They told us she didn’t need an iep, and does not have learning problems, so any extra help is unwaranted. 

Perhaps, it is harsh, but I feel like they are skirting around her disability trying to get by with the minimum they can when it comes to helping her. Like they refuse to akknowledge her autism, and tell me one thing one day and then next change their story.

I am not however sure I can do better myself, but I do know I am so over this school. So much seems to have changed since I was a child, and I don’t like it. Samara seems to be struggling, but wants to go but doesn’t want to go. I am so lost. 

The pregnant mama bear in me is struggling to not go out and freak out on everyone and everything in sight.

Her therapy is also providing to be a challnage to me. They dropped all their ot’s but 1, and I don’t like the office staff and I am too tired to keep chasing Sabastian, and I need better appointment times. I can’t take her out in the middle of the day all of the time during nap time. Ughhh… Their office staff is not the best, and causes too much frstration.

I am finding with this pregnancy I am struggling more and more with tolerance, tolerance of everyone and everything. High on my list of annoyances is Travis. Seriously, that man is working on my last nerve. Normally he doesn’t bother me so much, but lately he is getting to me. 

Everything is getting to me. The emotional part of pregnancy seems to be just as frustrating right now as the physcial. 

On top of everything, Samara is sick. She has a fever, and I am not sure what else, she keeps telling me she is fine, but she is sleeping, and kinda out of it… I know she is sick. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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