living with Autism & PTSD

Between Autism and PTSD, I am overwhelmed.

It is hard to live with such vastly different and yet similar disorders under one roof.

Their adhereance to routine, their insistance they are right, their inability to communicate, it is all too much.

I am tired, physcially and mentally most of the time.

I am nearly 9 months pregnant, I would love the chance to have an off day myself, be selfish and lose it myself, but I can’t. I have to be the stable one or all hell will break lose.

This morning was a 2 hour delay and the world almost ended…

I wish there was a way I could make peace, or keep the peace. To devolp a sense of understanding in one another, and then maybe in time an understanding of me.

Sure you can go around and read text books on the subjects, I have a clinical knowledge of each of them. I even have an empathic understanding of both of them, but nothing changes the day to day in and out of it all. Nothing is an intutive of living with both of them every day.

I could use a nap. But class calls my name….. At least class isn’t boring, and in time it will all pay off, when I can work and make my own money, and not be so dependent on others.

As much as it is a blessing to be a sahm with my kiddos, I am so thankful to be able to use my brain for something more…

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Kenny's 1st

January 22, 2013

I can’t imagine how hard it is to have both under one roof. My brother has PTSD and my daughter Autism. Luckily they aren’t in the same house. I’m not sure I could handle the outburst from both at the same time. I hope you find time to take care of yourself and good luck with the baby.

analizzato

2 hour delays are enough to make you want to throw in the towel and just keep them home for the day! you need some you time for sure…if i were you i’d stay as long as i could in the hosiptal with just the newborn 🙂 Even if i didnt like hospitals!

B+

January 23, 2013

I don’t even know what the hell is ‘wrong’ with the folks in my house, but I know when they all get going at once with their quirks and moods, it’ enough to want to run and hide.

RYN: I have no idea… I was like- Man, really. And then when Cody went ahead and had a bad choice day (he still has the IEP that says he can get up and leave to the TLC room if he needs a sensory break), they called ME instead of Alex to discuss that Cody was going to get suspended if he got in trouble again. He got afterschool detention today. And Alex sure enough went to get him because yeah.

pinkpunkcosmo

I hate having to be the stable one!

my own woman-again

January 26, 2013

I have a son with Autism that is non verbal and it is a hard job. It is a full time job, and it is an every day battle. I know it’s a huge struggle to get them their therapy and everything they need and to just get through a day. If there is anything I can do or any advice I can give you, just ask. I will share whatever I know!

I don’t know why I didn’t think of this sooner but you should try contacting the Wounded Warrior Project. They have great things for the wounded warriors, their caregivers (you) and the family.