I can do this

 

 

 Today starts classes, I still have no good childcare options, but we are going with it. 

I checked the sylabuses, I have 2 exams on the valentines day, and then nothing else until the end of MArch. It gives me a good chance to take leave without missing exams. This is a huge weight off my mind. You have no idea. 

My other class is done Febuary 27h.

The fourth has dead lines in like 3 week incriments, do x assignments by y date sort of thing. 

Folks, I can do this. If I make it past valentines day I am good. If I make it till the 21st I can go on a field trip! All will be well. 

I need to figure out what to do with Sabastian is all. 

I got supportive notes on my breakdown last night. Not that I want others to understand my crap, but I am glad many of you do. It is so easy to get so isolated in your own mind, and it is nice to be reminded that I am not alone. 

We are all different, but all walking our own paths, with our own difficulties. No ones life is golden. This is just a season in my life as well. Right now the path is bumpier than I had hoped, but like always the path is not so rough forever…. 

I truly think some of it is nerves of a new semester, and aniexty about the baby, my nesting doesn’t just mean cleaning, it means all of it really. All of my life needs order…. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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January 15, 2013

I wish I lived closer and could help…

I am glad that there is a bit of a break in your classes where you won’t miss big things–that sounds like a big relief. I hope your classes go really well today. 🙂 RYN: Wow.. they never figured out why? Maybe she had some form of dysautonomia (which is what POTS falls under). It’s not very well known among doctors, even though lots of people have it in varying degrees. It’s getting better,

though. Doctors are learning and it is finally being diagnosed properly. I just heard back from my doctor’s nurse and I can go back up to 3 pills a day until I see her, but if that doesn’t help, I am supposed to come in immediately. Hopefully it helps–I hate going to the clinic during flu season! 9 people (maybe more) have already died in SD and my immune system stinks. Anyway, I hope you have a

terrific day–you can do this! 🙂

January 15, 2013

I have no doubt that you can do it, but that little one inside may have different plans. 🙂

January 16, 2013

Oh sweetie, you’re allowed to have a breakdown every now and then, you have 2 special needs kids, a PTSD husband and you’re pregnant with another baby whilst trying to get ahead in life. It’s not easy, but no-one ever told us it would be THIS hard. I totally get it, and I know how hard it sucks. But you always have us here to vent to when you need to. xxxxxxxx

ryn: your welcome! glad someone could use some of them. what you don’t know is that I have at least another 42 pack and another half of a case of them LOL. I love that people bought us so many diapers and that she could wear them for so long, but… I really wish they would have thought a little more ahead!

January 18, 2013

you are a wonder-woman!!!! YOU CAN DO IT! Wow! So impressed. Think of how good you feel once you accomplish your goals in the next couple months.

January 26, 2013