rain rain rain

 

It’s been raining here since Monday for the most part. It’s so dark and dreary outside. It’s days like this that I really miss Chris. On a normal day I would be waiting for him to get home and I would say lets snuggle up on the couch for a bit after we got Nicholai to bed and watch something on tv and drink some tea… I would be so excited about doing that…. but this isn’t a normal day… this is deployment day 75.

I still don’t know what we are going to do about moving. I have a feeling that we are going to be stuck here. Chris thinks that we are pretty sure to get a VA loan but someone on the forum I’m on says that the mininum credit score to get one is 620… and I don’t know that our score is high enough. Which is sad. I think I’m going to go to the VA office that I’ve seen here and talk to them and see what they say. I know that paying off the things we owe will help raise the score so maybe by the time he is home it will be high enough. I don’t know. And then there is our lease. I think that we signed for a year lease but if we signed for more Chris will be deployed again before it’s up and I don’t know how I would move into a house by myself, somehow I would have to move the sofas, the bed, unhook and re-hookup all the electronics and somehow drive not only the moving truck all over creation but then get 2 cars moved over…. all with a baby running around.

Oh yeah… that would soooo happen. Yeah, in some alternate demension in some other insane reality.

So in the real world that would put Nicholai and I stuck in this apartment through another deployment. *sigh* Damn the Army is just messing up EVERYTHING. But then I’m being negative about it all… I don’t know that we won’t get the loan…. I don’t know that we won’t be able to move. I blame the Army for my thinking…. expect the worst and hope for the best but then that has me always thinking the worst, which would be us stuck here during another, right around the freaking corner deployment.

I wish that I had more friends around here so I could borrow their husbands to help me move lol. That would be nice.

Tomorrow Nicholai goes back to the ped to check on his ear infection. I’m hoping that it’s gone and then we can get back on track with his medical stuff. He still hasn’t had his 12month well check. I don’t mind him being behind on his vaccinations but I would like to make sure that he is developmentally on track. And ask about his weight to make sure that he is still ok because he is 13 months and only 21pounds.

Friday it will be October. I know that as soon as I turn the calendar page and see no days crossed off in October I’m going to be depressed about it but there is so much going on in October. The first 2 weeks of October has something going on pretty much everyday. And I’m excited about Samhain this year… going to Magicka School is really helping me develop into a great Wiccan. I’m on Lesson 3 and I’ve gotten 100s on both of my quizes so far! YAY! I wish that I had more money to get some Wicca supplies. I have to put it off every year because money is so tight, I always have to sacrifice, but family is first so it’s fine. But I’m so excited about Samhain and the day after Samhain will be November 1st. I have a feeling that even though the first day of October will be sad that once I really get into the month it will fly by.

And I think I’m going to do NoJoMo this year since I missed it last year.

And I need to start Christmas shopping. There are only 87 more shopping days until Christmas if I shop on Christmas Eve like an idiot. But somehow I always end up out on Christmas Eve picking up last minute things. I know these next 3 months will end up flying by… it’s January I have to worry about going slow and driving me insane.

*sigh*

I think I’m going to redo my OD. I think I’m going to make it friends only…. and I know it will take work to get to that point but I don’t have that many people reading me anymore and I think that I need to make things more private and just keep thing people that I know read and note me. Just something I’ve been tossing around in my mind. I don’t know…. but with Chris deployed and talking about Nicholai all the time….. I think friends only is the way to go…. I don’t know. Maybe.

Ok… this ended up being a lot longer then I thought…. time to go.