stay with me

 

Stay With Me- Danity Kane. Pretty song.

It’s been a while since I wrote last but Nicholai has kept me so busy that I haven’t had time and I’ve been studying Magicka School during his nap so there went my OD time. I finally finished taking notes for the first lesson and I have a little bit of time before I need to go get Nicholai up so I figured I would get on here.

Let’s see…. I ordered the rest of Nicholai’s birthday stuff. I’m so excited about his party. I can’t wiat to get everything and set it all up. I’m interested to see who shows up. If everyone shows then I will have about 22 people all together in my parents little house… which will be interesting lol. I’m leaving for Jersey ungodly early on Tuesday morning, like 3:30am if possible. That way I can get some sleep but still drive through much of the night. I was able to move up when I’m leaving cause the FRG meeting was cancelled so I don’t have to worry about staying the extra day for that now. Yay!

Time is moving I guess. Some days are better then others, some nights are better then others but that’s to be expected I guess. Chris and I don’t get to talk much. No. Wait. That’s a lie, we get to talk everyday but not for long. And our conversations are different. I know some of it is because most of what he does he can’t tell me and some of it is because of the distance. I think, well no, I hope that the weirdness of our conversations goes away once he gets home. I can’t even pinpoint what it is about talking to him that feels different… something… I don’t know. I can’t even explain it so maybe I’m just being crazy lol. That’s very possible. He just seems more distant. When I ask him he says it’s because he is tired which could very much be so because the guy hardly ever sleeps. He gets to be at like 6am and has 5 hours or less of sleep. Oh well. Like I said… maybe I’m just reading too much into it. My mind loves to over think EVERYTHING and it’s hard to judge him sometimes because I can’t see his face or read his body language. I don’t know. Bleh.

I used up the 7 day pass today. I had spin and body curcuit and OMG body curcuit will be the death of me yet. It just makes me hurt so bad. Even now after the shower I’m still hurting and tomorrow will be worse but I needed it cause I won’t be back in the gym until September so I needed to kick my body’s ass good to make up for lost time. My stupid body still looks the same. Grrrr pregnancy treating me like trash. My poor body is gross lol. Oh well. Gotta keep working in. The woman who runs the curcuit said that I’ve improved. Sweet!

Well… looks like sweetie boy is up. That’s my cue to get off and get back to mommyland. I’ll try to write once I get to Jersey… maybe before…. who knows.