almost through the weekend

 

 

The weekend is almost over! I’m glad about that. I thought I wouldn’t make it but it has actually been easy and I’m still doing ok. I haven’t heard from Chris short of those emails Monday night. I would give anything to just hear something from him… a phone call, an email, an IM… I’m not greedy, any of those would be wonderful right now.

Tomorrow I’m going to a meetup group meeting at a indoor play area with lots of toys for Nicholai’s age group. I know that he is going to have so much fun and it will be nice to get out of the house since I’ve stayed in all weekend. Nicholai is doing SOOOO well. So far *knocks on wood* it hasn’t been like when hubs left for Cali. He slept pretty well through the night last night. He woke up around 4am but only fussed for maybe a min before he put himself back to sleep until 7. He is napping right now. I’m so proud of him, he is being so strong without his daddy.

I started trying to clean up some today… it’s amazing how much cleaning I wasn’t doing while I was trying to spend time with Chris so now I’m really behind which is fine. Gives me something construtive to do. Thankfully I didn’t wake up with a headache this morning so I played on the floor with Nicholai pretty much all morning. It was nice. He loves for me to chase him now and every time he stops to see how close I am behind him, if I’m really close his screams and starts laughing. OMG it is seriously the cutest thing ever. Nicholai is going to make getting through this so easy.

I just wish time would move faster. I feel like Chris has been gone for months already and it’s only day 3. We aren’t even in double digit days yet. Ugh. I will be so glad once the first week and the first month are done, then I will feel like we are actually getting somewhere cause right now I don’t feel that way.

I’ve already lost 3 pounds. It’s not that I haven’t been eating, I just haven’t been eating as much and the things I have been eating have been healthy for the most part. Chris said he would be pissed if he found out that I wasn’t losing weight the healthy way, and I don’t think that losing 3 pounds in 3 days is healthy… I haven’t even started working out yet. Not that I’m complaining about the weight loss… just that I’m surprised that I’ve lost so much already. I’m still drinking Pepsi, just cut it down to 1 glass at dinner. And I swear I am eating 3 meals a day with a snack or two in there. I don’t know… maybe it’s all the stress that my mind is under affecting my body? Who knows.

I started reading my first book… still in the beginning though. It’s about 350 pages and I’m only on page 50 or something like that.

Blah…. 30min left in Nicholai’s nap and I haven’t really gotten much done…. guess I should stop writing. Laters