made it through

 
Well I made it through the first day!

Chris left around 2am this morning… we kissed and hugged goodbye and then he drove off to post. He landed in San Deigo around 3pm. It’s a 3 hour time difference so right now it’s 11:13pm here and 8:13 there. Hubby is doing ok.. considering he has had pretty much no sleep and hardly anything to eat. I still can’t believe that I made it through the first day already… I figured it would drag on endlessly but it went by so fast.

Nicholai didn’t do too well without Chris though. We watch Family Guy every night, and while we watch Nicholai plays on the floor and we sit and play with him… well tonight Family Guy came on and Nicholai went crawling through the house bawling and screaming because he couldn’t find his daddy anywhere. It was pitiful. And there wasn’t anything I could do. He ended up crawling into my lap and curling up into a little ball and watching Family Guy. He wouldn’t play or anything. Ugh… it was awful. I felt like such a bad mommy because I couldn’t fix it.

But we were able to Skype with Chris later and Nicholai was so excited. He screamed at the laptop and jumped… it was so cute!

Just gives me an idea of what deployment will be like…. and it’s going to be rough.

And I’m still waiting for it to hit me… It hasn’t even hit me yet that I won’t see him until June. I’ve just felt weird all day. The time came and went when hubs usually gets home from work and I just kept on with what I was doing and was fine but putting Nicholai down for his nap I had this weird feeling in the pit of my stomach, I can’t explain it. I just felt… off.

Like something was missing and I guess that makes sense. I don’t know… I miss my husband.

He will be gone for 20 days in total…. 1 day down… 19 more to go. We will be halfway on the 21st. I have a lot of stuff coming up. Tomorrow I might go to the baby sign language class, Friday I’m going to meet up with Carrie and Lance in Greenville I think…. Saturday I have to go grocery shopping and Sunday is Army Wives!!!! Monday I’m taking a break… Tuesday I think I have a meetup to go to… Wednesday is the last day of Kindermusik and Betsy is coming to Bragg for 10 days… so I’m sure I can hang out with her and that puts me right about halfway.

I will be fine and this training will fly by… but I should get to bed… it’s 11:30pm and I have no idea how Nicholai will sleep through the night.

… don’t be afraid, sometimes they come true! … music is my life