my first one

 
Happy Mother’s Day to all the mommy’s out there!!!

Ok… I’m a little late on this entry with the Mother’s Day wishes but I was enjoying my first Mother’s Day yesterday and didn’t post.

I had such a great weekend. Chris took Nicholai and me to the Ft. Bragg Fair on Saturday. We walked around, went on the merry-go-round and the ferris wheel with Nicholai… he wasn’t too sure about it lol. We also watched a sea lion show! It was awesome!! We had funnel cake too… soooo yummy! I got flowers from my mum. They are so pretty and the little pitcher they came in is beautiful!

Sunday hubby surprised me with a card from him and one from Nicholai. I can’t believe that Chris waited until Mother’s Day to give them to me. He is always so impatient. We played Halo: Reach Beta and hubby made breakfast and dinner. It was such a perfect day!

And it blows my mind. My first Mother’s Day. To wake up to a smiling little boy, that is all mine. That perfect little boy that Chris and I made. I couldn’t be more lucky or more proud. I wouldn’t be a mommy without that little one. Nicholai has changed my whole life, added something to it that no one else could. He has made me a mother and a better person, even better then the person that Chris helped me become. And, whats even more special… we were able to spend my first Mother’s Day together, as a family. I think that was the best part about it. To lay in bed with Nicholai and Chris and just soak it all in… that was the best Mother’s Day present I could ask for.

And now there is only today and tomorrow left because Wednesday morning at 1am Chris is going to leave to fly out to Cali until the 31st. I don’t know exactly what the field training is going to be like but next Monday he will be out in the field for 2 weeks and I might not get to talk to him at all if he isn’t allowed to bring his cell phone. I’m going to use this as a warm-up to deployment. I think it will be good, to help me see what it’s going to be like to be an Army-made-single-mom. We have no idea how long the deployment is going to be. Could be as short as 6 months or as long as a year. And I still find it weird that it has yet to hit me. I know that it’s coming, at this point its almost right around the corner, but I’m still doing ok. No breakdown in sight. I almost can’t believe it. Maybe I am losing my mind. I know I’m going to be worried about him. I mean, it’s still a warzone, people are still over there that want to kill soldiers and I know that… I think the worry is going to be the worst part of it. He is going over there with weapons and body armor… its dangerous…. and I think I’m going to be thinking about that more then the distance and the fact that I won’t be able to see, kiss, hug or touch my husband for months on end.

Our first deployment…. *sigh*

… don’t be afraid, sometimes they come true! … music is my life