back…. for now

 
Well it’s been sinking in… we are totally on the deployment clock right now. Hubs went out and bought a tough box home and packed up all the items on his packing list. Just makes this deployment all that much more real. And hubby is feeling it too. He is upset about missing time with Nicholai. I know that we are going to be fine… I’m not worried about getting through it. It’s just kinda hard to think about how we only have 4-5 months together and then we won’t see each other for 8 months… I almost can’t believe that its happening.

I knew that we couldn’t get out of deployments forever and I know that when we gets back we are going to try and buy our own house so there are plenty of great things coming out of it. I just don’t think it’s hit me yet. I’m not upset, I’m not worried (well I’m worried about him being in a warzone, but not about us getting through the deployment), I wonder when it’s really going to hit me.

Hubby’s birthday is right around the corner. He doesn’t want anything but I’ve already gotten him one thing. Nicholai actually picked it out himself so I just had to get it. I have a couple more things that I want to get because I don’t know if we will be together for his next birthday so I want to make sure this is a good one.

Nicholai is going to be 7 months old tomorrow! Where did all the time go?

And I guess that is the end of my time… he just woke up from his nap! So I’ve gotta get him.

Maybe I will have time to write more tomorrow.

… don’t be afraid, sometimes they come true! … music is my life