false alarms…. still pregnant

 
OK… so I lied… I am NOT loving being pregnant right now.

Over the past 2 days I have been to the hospital twice for false alarms. The first time was 5am 2 days ago. I went for about an hour because I was having contractions and hubby wanted me to get checked since my next OB appointment wasn’t until Thursday. So we go to the hospital. Go up to the 4th floor and fill out paper work. Then I go back to L&D triage and get undressed, pee in a cup, get hooked up to a monitor for the baby’s heartbeat and for contractions and wait. Nothing is happening and I’m still 2cm, so they send me home. Midnight today I go… why… because I drank castor oil. Ok.. it didn’t taste bad, but boy oh boy did it do what it was supposed to do. After spending about an hour in the bathroom I start getting contractions that are regular and strong. After about 4 hours of this we head off to the hospital… I’m having contractions still but I’m still not dialated any more. Still only 2cm…. so off I go to walk. Hubby and I walk the halls of L&D for about an hour and I get checked again.

Guess what….

Still only 2cm. *grits teeth and curses her cervix* So after about 3 hours, walking around with some serious contractions that are doing absolutely nothing and sitting with only a curtain between me and the girl who is hacking up all her guts and moaning big time because her labor is actually progressing…. we are sent home again. Poor hubby… he had a PT test this morning and only got about an hour of sleep and with all his excitement about me possibly being in labor for real the second time he didn’t eat for almost 2 days so he was half dead and couldn’t even finish his PT test. So he is on quarters for today and tomorrow and he doesn’t have to go back to work til Friday. Which means *drum roll please* that he can finally come to a OB appt with me!!!!! He has only been to 1 other appt, the first one, back in Janurary so I am really excited that he gets to come to this one. We will also get our induction date tomorrow. Dr. Jones said that if I hadn’t delivered by Thursday that they would set a date… and someone had better set a date for me because I am so ready to have this baby… so tired of false alarms and so done with being pregnant.

I almost feel like I will be pregnant forever. Come Sunday I will have been pregnant for 40 weeks, so 10 months… and I feel like this is just the way I am now because I’ve been pregnant for so long. I see all these other people with their newborns and I just can’t imagine that I will ever have one, I feel like the baby will just live in my belly forever. Crazy I know, but I find myself thinking that way every time I see a newborn. "I will never have a baby" And then I remember that I am pregnant and at the end of all this, but my brain still isn’t processing it.

My mum, father, Rebecca and David are planning on coming down from the 27th to the 30th so I had better get an induction date before that. I don’t want to be spending my time in the hospital while they are here. I want them to be able to see the baby.

The MIL is planning on coming to the hospital. I do NOT want her in the delivery room so if she thinks she will be in the room when I deliver she in out of her mind. As far as I know hubby has not brought this to her attention… but that is just the way it goes. I am NOT that comfortable around her, let alone her seeing me in pain…. no thanks.

So it’s off to bed for now…. I’m still having contractions. I have a feeling that I lost my mucus plug and I think that I am getting a UTI *rolls eyes* but I will ask the OB about that tomorrow when I pee in yet another cup. Maybe I will be dialated more then 2cm by tomorrow but I somehow doubt that.

Hopefully the induction date will be very soon. My birthday is on Saturday… can’t believe that I’m going to be 25 already. And hopefully I will be induced right after that so there is a chance that my next entry will be about the labor and with pictures of this stubborn little baby.
 

… don’t be afraid, sometimes they come true! … music is my life