its all up in the air

 
I haven’t been on much since Allison and Eric were here. They just left to go back this morning. It was so much fun having them here and I think that they had a really great time. We went to see The Orphan last night… ok…. that movie is beyond fucked up! It’s a great movie… it really is but OMG its insane. My jaw was dropped the entire time, I don’t think I’ve ever seen a movie like that with a plot twist like that… the whole theater was into the movie. Then on our way home we passed by this terrible accident. Little red compact car vs a Denali I think it was, which is a huge SUV. The engine of the red car was sitting in the guys lap and he was totally trapped. I’m first aid and CPR certified and would have stopped to help but the cops were pulling up as we got there so we just kept going. And to think… if it wasn’t for the fact that I had to pee yet again after the movie was over we could have seen or been involved in the accident.

We went to the zoo while they were here, I walked 5 miles being 35 weeks pregnant. People thought that I was insane lol. We went mini golfing, we played video games, we went out to eat, we went to the shooting range and Chris, Allison and Eric fired some 9mm, and they came to Jester’s to watch Chris’s band play… it was a lot of fun having them here! And I won’t see my sister again for another 4-5 months now…. crazy to think about.

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And this deployment just became slightly more complicated. I don’t know exactly what is happening anymore. While we were on our way to the shooting range Chris gets a text about another deployment, which leaves in October, for the Philippines. It would be a 6 month deployment so he would be home some time around March. We talked about it and decided that we would try and go for it, so he said that if they could pull it he wanted in. But now we don’t know what is going to happen. Leave it up to the Army… hurry up and wait. I don’t know when we will find out, but I would really rather him go to the Philippines. It is safer then Iraq, its shorter, he would be deploying with people he knew (let me tell you how worried I am about him deploying to Iraq as it is, let alone the fact that he would be deploying with guys he never met), and yeah he would miss a lot of the time that the baby was really small, but he would be back for the big things… the baby’s first birthday, our 2nd anniversary, the important Christmas…. things like that. If he gets the Philippines I would go back to Jersey for a month and stay with family through Thanksgiving and Christmas and then come back to NC and get ready for him to be coming home. I don’t want to get my hopes up through… this is the Army after all and all the things that we really want don’t seem to work out so I don’t know what is going to happen. I am hoping that we find out soon…. but I have no control over when we find out and what deployment he gets. I can just cross my fingers and hope…. *sigh* being an Army wife is so stressful sometimes. I’m really hoping for the Philippines!

And Molly and Justin are PCSing to CA in February. She was the one person I knew I could count on to be there for me during deployment since I’ve been helping her through hers…. I really would rather go through a deployment while she is still here because I know that I can call her up and ask what she is doing and say I’m coming over and she would be fine with it. Come on Philippines!

I don’t know what I would do about going back to school… I don’t know that I would want to go back right before the holidays so I might wait until after New Years to start… just something else that is up in the air right now.

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The MIL called to talk to Chris about the deployments and everything. I have a feeling she is going to be one of those MILs that calls every day asking if I heard from her son. UGH. She also said that she wants to be called when I go into labor because she is going to head down this way. I told Chris flat out that she is not staying here… thankfully she is getting a room. I also told him that she isn’t coming into the room while I’m delivering. I want that to be Chris and me… I don’t mind her stopping in while I’m in labor, but once its baby time… I want that to be just Chris and I. I don’t know if she knows that yet or if she was planning on being in the room, but it isn’t happening. And to top it all off my mum, father, other sister and brother are coming down here within the next 3 weeks and are hoping to be here for the birth as well. I have a feeling I’m going to be overwhelmed really fast…. and I’m kinda stressing about it already, but we will see what happens.

I had my first bit of serious Braxton-Hicks contractions after Chris’s show on Friday night. We were heading to Walmart since it was late and we were out of milk for the morning and I had the most annoying pain way down low in my abdomen, right underneath my undie line. It was hard to walk and it kept on hurting and then would hurt more and then less and more and then less. Chris kept asking me if I wanted to go to the hospital. I insisted that I was fine and told him that if they kept up we would go. It only lasted about 10 min, but it was pretty annoying to have everything so tight down there. I have a feeling labor is going to be a very interesting process…. especially if I stay on the path I want and don’t use pain meds.

I can’t believe that I’m 36 weeks now. 1 more week and I’m full term…. thats crazy! It’s almost baby time. I still don’t think it has sunken into my head yet. People at hubby’s job have a poll going about when I’m going to go into labor… lol. I’m hoping its soon because my belly can’t take much more of this. The stretch marks have gotten worse and I keep getting these little spots that look like blood blisters in some of my stretch marks. They don’t hurt at all… but I can tell my skin has about had it lol.

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There is just so much going on and I have no idea what is going to happen and when…. and that is driving me nuts lol

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